Citzenship here I come :)

Where the hell have I been??

Ohh that is right. Potty training Tyler, Playing counselor for my parents, fighting with my husband, studying for my citzenship test and daydreaming about winning the NC powerball :)

Lets start slowly.
Tylers potty training has been good. He will twinkle here and there but has been doing amazing and only pooping in the toilet. Thank you Lord. I was tired of cleaning dirty undies. I still have to change his sheets about twice to 3 times a wk for him peeing on them, but Scotty decided to remove his pull ups from naps and nighttime. Pull up free for about a wk now and I am doing more laundry. Ohh well. One day he will stop right?

My parents have had a really rough patch. I seriously thought after 28 years of marriage they were going to get divorced. He moved out and slept in his company for a week because they couldnt even be in the same house and be civil to each other. I of course got dragged into it and had to play mediator. No I dont like it, but its kind of impossible not to. Its only the 3 of us here. We have no family here and I am an only child. Its our job to help each other out through the good and the bad. The bad was that their sex life came up in the converssation..barf. How can I go 28 yr without hearing about their sex life and then finally have to go through that ? Ughh!!!!!! Add 10 more years of therapy and maybe I will be normal again.
But after 1 week of talking to her for a couple hours, then talking to him, then back to her then him and so forth for over a week and many minutes, I finally got them to see each others issues. You would think they speak 2 different languages because they have a serious communication issue. I am emotionally drained from all that but extremelly happy that he finally moved back and she is willing to listen more and they are willing to go to counseling. I think its major because what they say ? "You cant teach old dogs new tricks" Well they are defying that. I am so happy for them. I mean who the hell throws away 28 years? Heck you put up with it for that long, you better fight tooth and nail until the end right? 28 years is a big deal. They cant seem to see that. But all is well for now.

My husband on the other hand is driving me insane. I think we are going through the 7 year hump. Oct we will have our 7th wedding aniverssary and I want to kill him latetly. He hasnt been helping me out at all. I dont ask much from him but I do ask for the basic. You see something on the floor pick it up. You dont want to do absolutly nothing? FINE. BUT DONT FUCKING MAKE A MESS ON WHAT I CLEANED. That pisses me off to no end. He is really dropping the ball and I am getting tired of it. We are supossed to be working towards our future. We got two beautiful kids, a good income, health insurance, health, a lot more than others have. We should not be fighting over petty shit. But alas we are. I dont know where we will end up. He doenst want to go back to counseling and my patience is wearing thin. We will see what happens to us.

Now for the title of this blog. I applied for my citzenship in jan of 2008. If it wasnt for me being able to legalize my parents, I really wouldnt have not dealt with USCIS now. But they need it so I am doing it for them. I applied and after moving and the process getting delayed and having to transfer and fight with so many people I finally got my appointment for monday. If I pass the test, I can swear in and I am officially a citzen. I seriouslly cant believe it. It hasnt sunken in yet. Funny that end of may will be our 15th aniverssary of living here. I cant believe it has taken that long but that will finally be done. I am excited and for that I am studying a ton. The questions are not easy. Half of them my friends dont even know it. Not shocking since half of my friends are always calling me and asking me how to spell something or something about history or goverment or my favorite one..Geography. Makes me feel good. So send some vibes that I retain all this info until monday :)

Ju is doing really good. She is smiling a lot more, eating and just being a pleasant child. Tyler wasnt a pleasant child at all, so this is very welcoming (is that even a word??). Her eye appointment is on Tuesday and I am so scared. I dont like to admit it, but I am. I just want to know and hopefully he will be able to tell me something to do, because just sitting by and watching is driving me nuts. Give me a game plan, give me something, but dont leave me in the dark or I go nuts.

As for the powerball it rolled again.77 million dollars. Can you imagine it?? Granted take home is only about 45 mil but still. 45 mil wow!!!. That cant buy hapiness but it sure can buy a ton of spa days and I can do with that :)

*** I will leave you with a couple of pictures :)





love
a

Sooo weak....:(

I like to think my faith is strong and that I trust in God no matter what. Well I do and it is, unless something happens.

We took Juliet to the pediatrician on Friday for her 2 month well baby appointment and to get some shots. We were talking to the ped and after doing some tests, he confirmed what we already knew. It absolutly broke my heart. Knowing before, and then getting confirmed by a specialist its a very different feeling. On the way to the appointment the hubby and I talked and he pretty much broke down because he thought it was his fault since its his genes and etc and he remembered when he got the diagnose as a 3 yr old. I comforted him and told him the medicine is so much better today and etc and the fact that we are catching it early, she has that advantage.

Well as soon as the ped gave us the news I fell appart. What kind of faith is that? I know our God is good and he is there with us through everything. In my mind I know that and I know it in my heart, so why is that when my faith is tested, I fall apart??
I was soo frustrated. After a couple of days of thinking, I am better now and my heart is at ease and I know HE will see us through this and help us out. I am just dissapointment in myself that once more I failed. I so wish I had the unshakable faith that not even scary news like those that we got can affect me. But alas I am not strong. I am not there yet. All I can do now (asides from beating myself up) is keep on praying for a stronger faith. I am just happy our love for her hasnt changed one bit. We love her and will continue to no matter what.
So on the 5th we go see the specialist and hope he can give us some hope. Please if you all can share some prayers send them our way. We need them :)

Well the whole weekend went by in a daze. My parents came in on thursday afternoon and we had a bbq and drank some beer. Friday we went to Ju's appt and then to the store. After getting home and sharing the news with them, they were upset and the whole mood was kind of somber. But we still tried to have faith. My parents thinks everything will be okay. It wont be easy , the road will be hard and complicated with some heartache, but the fact that we caught so early, have kick arse insurance and medicine is so much better than what it was when hubby was a kid we had odds on our side. I sure do hope so.

Saturday morning we did the easter egg hunt. I told my parents we fill the plastic eggs and then make a trail for Tyler to find the big basket he had. They argued with me and said nope that is not how it works. So after cutting hundreds of bunny paws we set it up. We put the paws all over the place. Tyler had to follow the paws to find a couple of eggs together and then keep collecting the eggs on his basket until the paws led him to his big basket. It was comic. My house is not that big so imagine 3 adults following a very excited 2 yr old and trying to take pictures and bark orders and etc. Ohh boy.. But we did it and asides from 4 bad pictures, my father actually got some good pictures. He is going to send me and I will upload them. I had already taken them on Wed to get the bunny pictures at the mall and since they came out so crappy and cost me 20 freaking bucks, I didnt want to deal with anymore pictures this weekend..lol.

Keeping up with grandparents tradition, they completetly spoiled Tyler. Not only did he get a bunch of toys, he got 3 times his weight in chocolate. Unfreakinbeliveable!!.
Thank God I had good foresight to get him some books and coloring books and a couple toys and only a small bag of chocolate because I knew he was going to get soo many toys.
Ju also made out good. She got a bunch of bunnies and a couple of light up toys. Absolutly adorable. At this age she doesnt care but hopefully later on she will play with them.

So after arguing with my kid and rounding up all his candy and trying to explain to him that he cant eat all in one sitting, we took them to the park then later on just chilled around downing some Sangria and watching movies.
We watched the new Bond (Quantum Solace) and Slumdog Millionare ( Hubby and I loved it, my parents fell asleep during ). Unless there is action from beginning to end they will fall asleep on it.
On Sunday morning they left and we went to church. Their visit was good. Asides from a couple of critizism here and there, things went okay.
Sunday service was beautiful. Our Christ has Risen. How people cant believe that is beyond me. But anywyas this wont be a religious sermon...I promise :)

Today the hubby is off so last night we got another 12 pack and just drank some beers and shooted the shit (his words not mine..lol) until almost 1am. I miss that. We have been so busy latetly with the kids, and work and everything else, we havent had time for each other. So to just sit there and enjoy each others company was good.

Today morning came too fast. I woke up with a nice surprise and the reassurance I am not pregnant *wink wink. No seriouslly I was scared. Ju is over 2 months old. Even though we have been careful, I was worried. But today reassured me and the aunt arrived. So back on birth control I am until hubby get it together and we make the final decision.

Asides from doing laundry and starting on my third book ( I flew through Bright Lights Big Ass and Such a Pretty Fat(Lancaster), so now its a war book. I dont really care for war books and was going to start on another chic lit to continue the trend, but since my neighbor told me I have to read this book because it made him cry, I had to start on it and read it, since an Airborne soldier is admitting to crying to a book, that piqued my interest.

So that is that. I hope everyone had a good Easter and didnt gain too much :)

Love
A
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ps..Here is a couple things that also happened , so when I mention them in a later blog you arent lost..:

* Hubby bought a car for 100 bucks. A 95 Nissan Altima with a blown engine. The car is in great conditions and since we can get a new engine for under 1k and he can put it in it was a good deal and we need 2 cars again. So the end is near and I will have some freedom.
* I washed my husbands uniform and there was a pen inside. SO if in a later blog I mention I murdered him, you will know the facts that led up to it :)
*I decided to not do the FCC provider
* I decided to go to work
* I decided that I wont be able to work full time because Ju is too young and I will be worried
*I decided that I do want to work and that the kids will be fine and it will be good for me.
* I decided I will go to school full time..
* I decided to stop making decisions for a while :)

Take that arteries...

So..

After months of eating healthy and being faithful to our budget we decided to splurge tonight on a healthy, organic and wholesome dinner (aka Mcdonalds :D).
Its such a pretty place inside with all the delicious smells circulating the air. ( I am very strange. The only aroma that makes me happy and content is the one of food. Bad food. Anyother kind of fragance doesnt have the power to put me in a good mood as the aroma of deep fried artery clogging yumminess)..

I dont know what is it about not eating a juicy burger and crunchy fries for a while that when you finally do taste the goodness, it is like you are experiencing for the first time. It was heavenly. We sat outside so Ty could play in their huge ,know how to keep toddlers occupied, playground and devoured our food. It was soo freaking good because after not eating it for months, we felt we deserve the treat so we didnt worry about our cholesterol or waist lines. Our buttons might have groaned once or twice, but seriouslly who was listening to them anyways? Definetly not me. All my body was in tune to the delicious explossion of taste and smell it was going on around me. I was very content and satisfied. The husband didnt want to share his fries. He wasnt sure the next time we would be doing this again, so like a squirrel saving nuts for the winter, he stuffed them all inside his mouth making him look like a squirrel. Asshole. True love means sharing your friends. Those are lessons you learn in 3rd grade. Ohh well. I did steal one when our lovelly toddler fell while playing in the playground and above mentioned husband jumped to his feet first to rescue him. I am ashamed to admit I sat there for a minute or two waiting if I was going to hear a serious cry or see some blood or broken bones before prying myself away from my delicious fries. What?? Do I need to remind you again how long has it been since I had yummy goodness and how long will be since I will have them again? *maybe I should take a clue and shove them in my cheeks for the winter like those damn annoying ugly squirrels *..

But anyways, wonderful husband sprung to action, gave our son a hug and send him off to play. His injuries werent ones that required special attention and I like to think that because of my wonderful mothering intuition, I didnt get up and sprung into action. It was definetly mothering intuition, not my love for fries.
So while saving the kid, I stole a couple of his fries. His and our sons. Yep I stole fries while no one was looking. I am not ashamed to admit it. In any decision I make, I always have their best interest at heart. Many times theirs before mine, stealing a fry here and there is just a perk of my job. *wink

So after hours (it was only minutes unfortunatly) of savoring our delicious food and licking our fingers clean, we packed up and headed home. Full and completly satisfied looking fowards to the next time we will go back again.


(Yes I fucking blogged about my experience at McDonalds. Does it sound stupid or make me look like trash that McD's has become a place that brings such wonderful feelings? I dont give a flying-full-of-delicious-running-burger-juice finger :)


xoxox A

***Decisions********

While a couple important things have happened, these past couple of weeks in my life has been all about me trying to decide where will my life go next.

I did get my interview scheduled for my naturalization. May 7th I will go in and take the test and swear and become a US citizen. To be able to put this behind me and not have to deal with USCIS again will be a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. I cant wait.

I have also decided I need a degree. We are supossed to be here for 3 years, plenty of time for me to buckle down and get a bachelors in something. My issue? I have no clue what. I have finally decided nursing is not for me. No matter how much I want, think I would be good at, is a good paying job and secure, its not for me. So back to the drawing board I go trying to figure what the hell in the world would make me happy. I was thinking Spanish teacher, but to teach forever I dont know. Then maybe bussiness in healthcare management, but I really dont know. I dont have a passion for absolutly nothing and that is so sad and pathetic. Until I figure out what I want to do, I keep taking classes and wasting time and money and the more time passes the more depressed about this whole thing I get. Its a vicious cycle :(.

The kids are doing good. Ty is a trip latetly with all the stuff he is learning. His favorite new phrase is "not yet". Anything you ask him he will answer with "not yet" even if "not yet" is not an acceptable answer. He has been doing great with the potty training and by next month we should be able to send him to preschool if thinks works out with Scottys job.
Ju is still not smiling at almost 7 wks old. That is upsetting me so much. I dont know why. I think its the hormones and this new antidepressant. Who knows? I just know that right now taking care of my husband/house/kids are the only thing that gives me a sense of accomplishment since professionally, I am not going anywhere. So the fact that she is not smiling makes me think she is not happy at all which breaks my heart in a million pieces. I trully do hope she will smile soon. I dont know how much more of this I can take :(. Asides from that, she is doing great. She eats, sleeps and has a pretty good personality. TY is up her face all day long and she takes it in stride. always checking him out and never crying even when I know he is bugging her.

Now on to Scotty. Ohh my lovelly husband. I love him with all my heart and we have been getting along great, but he is not doing too good either.
He is in a unit that he wont deploy for 3 yrs but on he other hand, they are an EOD unit and dont have that many trucks so he doesnt get to turn wrenches. He has the choice to go to a unit that has a very quick rotation (82nd) but he will get to turn wrenches. We had a very long heart to heart and he did explain to me that when he deployed last time, because he was leaving rigth before Ty was born, he convinced himself it was for the best and he needed to take care of his country and I guess he did such a good job at convincing himself, that now he cant let it go. He is extremelly happy he is here for Ju and have gotten to experience this phase, but at the same time he is feeling uselless. Being a soldier, part of your job is to deploy and he figures he is not doing his job, on top of being in a unit where hey doesnt turn wrenches and doesnt get to show his abilities, he is pretty misserable.
I will support him in whatever he wants to do. I understand where he is coming from and even though a deployment will suck with 2 kids, I can do it.

So that is pretty much what has been going on. I am trying to decide if I want to become an FCC provider since we need extra income to pay off cc's and that way I can make tha extra money and stay at home with the kids or not. I think I am going to do the course (1 wk in may) just to have it. If he does change units and deploy, I will have to give my all to the kids since they will only have one parent, so working will be out of the quesion. If he doesnt change units , then I will start taking care of kids and hopefully get out of the cc's because they are bugging me.

So we will see. I been trying to have faith and know everything will somehow work itself out, and some days I do such a good job, other days I am just barerlly holding it.

Whatever will be will be right?

xoxox
A

Happy birthday to you....

Happy birthday dear Juliet. Happy birthday to you ...yepppieeeeee!



(WARNING: NEW MOTHER GUSHING ABOUT HER DAUGTHER. PROCEED WITH CAUTION :))

Yep. Today is Juliets birthday. She is 1 month old :)
I have been getting all teary eyed latetly that the time has been flying and she is growing up so fast and never again will she this tiny. I am also excited she is growing healthy and soon the milestones will come and make me happy, but its a bitter sweet moment.
So anyways, she is about 20 inches, 9.5 lbs and just a bundle of joy. She is extremelly healthy and have no problems at all. How can we be so blessed is beyond me.
She is adorable at this young. She has this thing where she purs when she is sleeping. I was sure she was congested. When we went for her appointment, the doc said its just them learning how to breath. Her chest is absolutly clean. Its just normal. Well Scotty is always messing with her. He says she sounds like a pager on vibrate on top of a table...purrrrpurrrpurrpurrrpurrr. All night long. We have gotten so used to it, I will definetly miss it when it stops.
Another thing is, I was sure she was going to smile today. See, she only smiles once and that is at night right after she have eaten and burped, she will let out this huge smile and then pass out and the purring will start. She doesnt smile at any other time. Only at night. Today I was hoping she was going to smile since its her birthday and all, but nope no luck.I think she will just surprise me..lol.
I cant complain about anything. She is such an easy baby.
She is a good sleeper/eater. Sometimes she will sleep through the night (5 or 6 hrs straight), other nights she is up every 4 hrs on the dot. Also, during the day I bring her to the living room with us because I hate leaving her byherself. She is part of the family. So I will either bring her bassinet or she will be sleeping on her swing. Its unbeliveable how used she is to our house. Tyler will scream, the tv will be on, I will be vaccuming and even have the mixer on. Nothing fazes her. she will just keep on sleeping. Also when Tyler screams or throws a tantrum, she wont even startle or nothing. She will just open her eyes check things out and then go back to sleeping. I think she got used to it all while in utero..lmfao.
During the day, you can time your watch to her eating. She will be completetly passed out, as soon as that 4 hrs hit, she will be up whinning to eat. She doesnt really cry. I dont think I have seen a tear on her (Thank God). She will just whine louder and louder and start sucking on her hand when she is hungry.
She will eat anywhere between 4-6oz. Right now the avarage is 5. She will get mad for half oz. Its funny cause sometimes we will feed her 4.5 oz thinking its enough, well its not. She will whine then we give her more. She will eat her .5 oz and then pass out. She will also pucker up her lips when she is done. Too cute. I am completly smitten and in love. I thank God everyday for her. She is a pain in the arse to burp for me. She will eat in less than 20 minutes but take a while to burp. Sometimes its 4 am and I have done feeding her and will be sitting there patting and patting and nothing. Finally I am so exhausted and wake up Scotty. He taps for less than 20 seconds and out comes a huge burp. Absolutly unbeliveable. He has been so proud of the fact he can burp her better than me, I adore that he has that since he missed so much with Ty.

I havent decided yet when to do professional pictures. Right now she sleeps so much and its so young, I think I might wait until she is a bit older. We will see.

Well that is enough gushing for now :) I will update about her as time goes on.

I hope everyone is okay and not too frozen.

love
A

Car seat cover

Some of you might remember the whole Target deal where they had the Britax Marathons on sale for 1/3 of the price. A lot of people werent able to get that deal, I was :)
Anyways, the car seat came with a cow over. I despise anything cow. Might be because of my love for pigs :)
Well I put that seat cover for sale on ebay and ever since then, I been looking for a new one. At $80-$120 bucks or more for the cute ones, I had given up on the fact I was going to find one. Well I did. After months of searching, I came across this site on etsy and fell in love with this specific pattern. I had to wait since she was out of it, but she finally got the material in, made me seat cover and shipped to me today. It was all for under $60. I am so freaking excited. The quality is beautiful, extremelly well made and of course its gorgeous. I couldnt be happier.
So if anyone is interested in getting one, here is her site :
Definetly order from her. You wont be dissapointed and she is a sweetie.

Dont notice how it looks crooked. I just put on top. I have no clue how to put the straps to, adjust it or even put it in the car. That is Scottys job. :)

MOVIE REVIEW :)

The hubby and I have always loved watching movies. Long ago before kids, we use to go to the movies at least once a week. Heck some weeks we went 2 or 3 times. We also rented a ton of movies. That has always been our number one hobby.
Well after the kids came along, I refuse to be one of those moms that will drag my kid to watch SAW at the 10pm showing. Sorry cant do it. Not even if he will sleep through it.
So for a while we have been patiently waiting for all the good movies to rent. Well I finally stumbled on a great site that you can watch all the new releases while in theatres for great quality. This is dvd quality and they come out a day or two right after they have hit the movies. So we have been watching every single new release. We put our kids to bed (working with ds going to bed at around 8 by himself and dd is so good she just chills) and if we are not exhausted we will watch a movie.
We have seen "Marley and Me", "Taken", "Push" and "7lbs" and have a huge list of many more to see.

Lets start with "Marley and me": What a good sweet movie. I am not a major dog lover like some people, but this movie did tug at my heart. Its funny, sad and beautiful all at the same time. Scotty is the major dog lover and he loved it. Its a crier though. So make sure all your hormones are in check before you start watching it.


Taken. Awesome action movie. From beginning to end. The action actually starts right at the beginning and it keeps going. Nothing mind blowing or anything but a good action movie.

"Push". I have been so excited to watch this movie ever since I seen the previews for it. When we started watching, I was jumping around like a 2 yr old. I couldnt wait for it. Well it was a huge dissapointment. The concept of it was good but the movie itself just sucked. I was soo freaking upset. By midway movie I just wanted to shut off and go to bed but we still watched the whole thing. Dont waste your money going to theaters to watch this one. Just wait to rent it and even then, rent from redbox so you only waste a buck. Yeahh that bad.

The last one we have seen was 7lbs. That is the weird one with Will Smith. I saw the previews for it but had absolutly no clue what the movie was about. Seriouslly the previews show its a good movie but doesnt really tell you what the movie is about. I wanted to google it before we watch but decided to just watch it and be surprised. Boy I am glad I didnt google it. Dont if you dont know what the movie its about. It makes it extra special !.
This movie is 124 minutes long. Until minute 84 or so, you have no clue whats going on but still the movie keeps you captivated. The suddlenly you start to understand everything and start crying. What a beautiful touching movie. I love everything Will Smith does, but this is just wow. Definetly watch it.
I cant say much more about it or I will give the movie away, but watch it. Its a trully wonderful piece of art.

This weekend we are in between "Curious Case of Benjamin Button", "Bride Wars", "Confessions of a shopaholic" and a weird movie Scotty wants to watch.
Whatever we decide to watch, I will definetly come back and udate it.

----Ally--------

Church shopping !

Last year we decided it was time to go to church. I missed a ton and I finally convinced Scotty to go. Well we got reccomendation from a couple of our friends and decided to go to this non denomination church that was very small and very low key. We could wear jeans and flip flops and no one cared. Half the people wore the same thing. The nursery was awesome and the service was wonderful. The pastor was very sweet and he didnt preach from beginning to end. He actually talked to us about all kinds of things. From marriage, to saving money and etc. It was such a wonderful/ fun service that he had us laughing through parts of it and at the same time sharing a beautiful message. Scotty fell in love with it. It was the first church he didnt falls asleep. He was very excited to go every sunday morning. Ours lives also started improving a lot.
Well we PCSd to Bragg in Oct. We havent even looked for a church yet because of everything that was going on. Things started to happen, one on top of the other and we started making stupid decisions and I felt something was missing. Finally I decided back to church we are going. I just feel so much better going to church with my family on sunday. Me that use to hate going to church and any type of organized religion is now craving for it and feeling like something is missing.

So after the decision was made, it was time to find the right church for us. Doing what any normal person would do, I posted an ad on craigslist (no joke and dont laugh.) but what was I supossed to do? I am in a new area and if I go to yellow pages I get over 500 hits of churchs in the area. I couldnt go to every single one of them. So I posted an ad on craiglist saying that we moved from texas, and that we were looking for a church that you could jeans and a tshirt and not be looked down on. Also one that had a nursery for Tyler and a good service. Not a preaching one from beginning to end or else Scotty was going to fall asleep and never want to go back. I explained all of that in my ad.
I was pleasantly surprised when I got over 50 responses. The kindness and willingness of people willing to help me brought tears to my eyes.
Some people wrote telling me that their church doesnt fit what we were looking for but they wished me the best of luck in finding the right one.
Other people wrote me just to tell me how much they understand how hard is to move around every couple years with the military and how difficult it must be leaving your church that you like and enjoy and having to find a new one.
I was seriouslly crying reading all these emails. This made me realize there is some kind people out there. And who would have thought I would find them by posting an ad on craigslist looking for a church?? Still makes me laugh just thinking about it.

But anyways, after sorting through all the emails, I wrote down all the names of the churches that fit our charecteristics and others that I think we would like and on Sunday we picked the first one and went.

Now this one caught my attention because on the email the guy told me you could wear whatever you wanted, the nursery is great and that his kids come home talking about Jesus and sharing everything they learned (that was a major plus considering I feel my number one job as a mother is to teach my kids about our beloved wonderful savior) and he also said the services are very livelly and that there is no way my husband would fall asleep. I didnt really like that the service started at 8am or 11 am. The 8 am is too early. No way we would make it on time with 2 kids to get ready for in the morning. The 11am seemed kind of late since by the time its done it would be well past lunch time for Tyler and maybe even past his nap time. But I decided not to let that bother me and went anyways.

Well we go in and everyone is extremelly nice. Its a nondenom. christian church. The church is very pretty and there is over 150 people there. Bigger than what we wanted but okay. One thing that we did notice as soon as we walked in the door is that church is 99.9% black. And I say 99.9% because Scotty and I were there. If we werent it would have been 100%. I mean seriouslly no joke. We were the only white people there. No exageration either. We stood up to introduce ourselves and I looked around and we were the whitest.
Now I am not racist by anymeans. I wouldnt have cared but we did feel out of place. If it was half black or even 75% I would have had no issues with it. But the fact that we were the only whities there, did make us feel out of place.
The service was amazing though. The music was beautiful, the energy was great. All the old ladies dancing in the pew while praising Jesus. The pastor was funny. He had on this bright red stripped suit. He looked more like a rapper. The way he delivered the service was funny. He would say stuff like "can I get an amen..whoop whoop" or soemthing like "I better not talk about this topic or folks are going to get mad at me..but I am going to talk about anyways. I want to rustle feathers.." ...i mean we were cracking up.
Also lots of "praise the Lord.Halleluah". It trully reminded me of any movies you see on tv about small towns southern baptist churches.
We had a good time. Even though we realized this church is not for us and next week we are going to a different one in search of trying to find that homey feeling, we still enjoyed ourselves.

So next week we are going to pick a new one from the list I made and try it out. We are between this one called Rockfish (which I heard from 3 emails that is a great church) or this other one to which we have nicknamed the biker church. Scotty is dying to go there. The reason for the nickname is : on the email the lady explained to me that we could wear our jeans and no one would look at us funny since the biker club go that church and they wear tank tops and tats all over the place and no one gives them weird looks at all. So of course Scotty wants to go to see the bikers. Not the right reason to go to church, but hey as long as he is there, its all cool.

So I will continue to post about my quest in order to find a church.

One thing that stuck with me about this church we went on sunday is that the pastor said church going is only like housekeeping. You only go to church to brush up and concentrate on God but that the real work ( or deep cleaning) is done outside church during our week and outside in the real world. That struck a note with me.
So the next time someone asks me why I find it necessary to go to church, I will tell them I need to do some housekeeping :)


Wish me luck people. We need/want this :)

love
A

Nursery on a budget :)

Everyone has been asking me about the nursery. Its not completetly done but I am dang proud of it since I didnt even spend $300 on everything. I am extremelly proud of my bargaining skills :P

Wow ....just wow!

I never imagined how hard it would be juggling 2 kids.
Yes 2 kids :) My gorgeous daughter Juliet Grace was born on Feb 3rd. Healthy and happy 8lbs9oz. She is absolutly perfect. Such an easy baby (knock on wood). I am in love.

But anyways if you know me, you already know all the detail. Okay so back to topic of juggling 2 kids. This morning Ty wakes me up at 7 (scotty has left long ago for pt) and tells me he got to poop. So I jump out of bed, hit my knee on the bed and rush him to the bathroom. I cant believe the stars. We been trying to potty train this kid for such a long time and everytime we ask him if he has poop, he says no. So the fact that he is telling me is great. Well I rush him to the toilet in a half limping half asleep daze, rip his diaper off and put him in the potty only to realize he had already pooped in his diaper. At the same time Ju starts crying because its time for her to eat (she only cries when its time to eat), and my phone starts to ring. So I tell Ty to sit still, rush to get the phone on the way to hand Ju a pacifier to keep her happy for 2 more seconds. My mom is on the phone calling me to ask something stupid. I answer her quickly. No no profanities did come out :)
I hand Ju her paci and rush back to Ty. He of course didnt sit still and decided it was bath time. SO he went to the tub to take a bath. So now I have a toilet and tub to clean at 7 am before I even had coffee and remember that I have a baby in the other room with just a paci that wont last for long and I still need to make her bottle.
So the cool collected mom that I am knows what to do. I sat down and started laughing. OMG I havent laughed in so much. It was just one of those moments.

So that is life right now and I wouldnt trade for anything. Just need to learn how to manage crisis a bit better :)


PS Only my husband will spend $9 bucks on a pt shirt for Tyler so he can match dada..