Monday, June 27, 2011
Over the hill, the world looks different!!!!
The clock has struck midnight, I am officially 30 years old. After years of worrying, and stressing about it, its finally here. I am here now, what my 20yr old version thought its the crossroad, between fresh-new-hip to ancient-classic-old. :O
I don't feel like an old fart, I don't have any extra wrinkles or white hairs and thank God I didn't magically grow a hairy wart on my nose. I am still the same as I was yesterday, except I have crossed that "over the hill" invisible line. You know the one in which everything moves at warp speed, your back, knee and hips and calcium levels starts to enter your mind. Yeah THAT line!!
You know lots of people set up "30 before 30" lists of things they want to accomplish, kind of like a last hoorrah at trying to cross that line feeling a bit better about where their lives are going.
Considering this birthday has fallen at a tailed of a deployment, unless that list would have included survival without loosing any more sanity or working facial muscles or fork lifting, no way I was going to accomplish anything, and I am okay with that.
See, I am now 30 years old ; I have never owned my own home, I have not traveled nearly enough, I am not a fit size 6, I am not famous, I haven't discovered anything, became a self made millionaire, 401k is about how much I would love to have in my bank account, and I haven't even graduated college for that matter……and now I am going to jump off the nearest bridge.
Where was I going with this again?? Oh yeah, all joking aside, there is a lot of things I don't have or haven't done, but yet I feel extremely blessed and I actually satisfied with everything.
Want me to prove it??
I have an amazing husband who has been kicking ass by my side for the past 9 1/2 yrs and counting. My life is so much better because of him, and even though he is 8k miles away, he is just as involved and a reason for my happiness as if he were sitting right next to me.
I have 2 healthy amazing children, who even though drives me insane at all hours, are another gift from God.
I have 2 parents that are still married and in love today as they were 30 years ago. I have learned what love is and how to love from the best example possible. They also drive me nuts, but are so wonderfully amazing, I wouldn't be half the person I am without them. Who would have cooked for me an amazing meal that I love and they don't really care for if they didn't really love me??
I have friends that I consider friends. The good kind that are there for the good and the bad, that will laugh in the good times, and hold you in the bad times without booking.
I have grandparents, cousins, aunts, that even though separated by distance, every time we talk or see each other, is like no time has ever passed. I can call my grandmother anytime to rant and rave and she will listen and cuddle me over the phone.
I have integrity, honesty, and peace of mind. I am healthy, loved and adored. I know the value of a $$$. I have faith.
So, even though it seems like I haven't accomplished much/anything of what society dictates on what you should have by the time you turn 30, I have accomplished even more and have been blessed beyond my wildest dreams. If by 30 I have all of this, I cant imagine what all I will have by 40, 50 or even 60.
Now instead of dread, I am actually excited to see what comes next, and that is by far the best gift the universe could have given me: Excitement over turning pre historic ;)
Posted by Ally