Saturday, December 31, 2011

2011 in review

This year has been full of so much, I don't even know how to describe it.

The year started with me living in Fl with the kids while the hubby was in Afghanistan.

Feb he came home for leave and we took a week long trip to PA to see his family and made a stop in Virginia to visit the bestie. The kids got hugged by great aunts, we saw family that we haven't seen in a long time, had a family reunion, ate too much, drank even more and froze a little. We dodged a nasty snowstorm in W VA, and got to hug the bestie and the god children.

Little one turned 2 and we had a wonderful little party. Then hubby went back to Afghan.

March, April and May was busy with school, play dates, lazy days at the grandparents, just passing the time.

June brought me old age and the new decade. OMG I am 30!!!

July and August was about the same as March and April.

Sept the mess started. Hubby came home, and we went on a luxurious trip of a lifetime to Atlantis Bahamas. 4 days of delicious pina coladas, wonderful rides, sun, fun, and each other.

Then little man turned 5 and we started liking him so much more. He started listening better, helping out and it was finally our gift for not strangling him when he was going through his terrible 2's, horrible 3's and who the heck are you 4'?

Also mil and fil came into town and with my parents we headed over to Sea World. We stayed at this kick ass hotel, and everyone had too much fun.

Oct brought the news we were moving to end of the world El Paso, Texas.

In one week we packed and moved across country. How I survived I have no idea, but I do know it caused 3 strands of white hair :O

Oct and Nov was spent adjusting to the hubby home, both kids in school, living in dry land and trying to get used to the climate and all.

End of Nov was classified of life change decisions. I hoped on a plane, crossed a border and had vertical sleeve in Mexico.

Dec started with recuperation, falling in love with the hubby even more for all the ways he took care of me and decorating for Christmas.

Christmas was amazing with the children and my parents and some awesome friends.

This year has been a mix of calmness and out of this world life changes. 2012 won't be any different and I can't wait.

Love A

Thursday, December 29, 2011

I am eating ice cream for lunch..

and I like it :)

After the weight loss surgery, I need to consume anywhere between 50-70 grams of protein. Since we can't eat that much, protein shakes are the fall back. If I had to drink one more protein shake I was going to shoot myself.

Thank God I am married to a wonderful man who had the bright idea of adding a scoop of protein to my greek yogurt. It became a chocolate pudding and life was better.

Life got even better when I stumbled upon theworldaccordingtoeggface blog. Yeah weird name, but she is the top chef of weight loss recipes. She had the gastric bypass, lost hundreds of pounds and did it eating well. She posted this recipe :

This should be illegal!!

Say what?? I don't have to down another protein shake, can eat ice cream for lunch without guilt?? OH you are my new hero.

Santa delivered an ice cream maker attachment for my kitchen aid and I got down to work. I still need to perfect the method but its absolutely delicious.

So yep, I am eating ice cream for lunch and life couldn't get any better :)

Also, after much pleading from the husband, I took a current picture and I guess he is right, 1 month and 17lbs does make a difference.


Now please ignore the craze look and the chapped lips. No amount of carmax can fix my lips in the winter and ignore the fact I am computer stupid and can't figure out how to make the picture smaller.

Love A

Monday, December 26, 2011

Hindsight is 20/20

I should have let Santa bring my kids a puppy, or a convertible, or maybe a pony. That would have caused less headache than this..

Grandparents are just awesome aren't they??

Love A

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Almost wordless Tuesday..

Pinterest and crafty husband made this happen.....

Now Pinterest and uncrafty wife needs to make some floor pillows happen ;)

Thursday, December 15, 2011


"A Thousand Words Can't Bring You Back,
I Know Because I Tried
And Neither Can a Million Tears
I Know Because I Cried."
~Author Unknown

I have a lot of friends going through the horrible heartbreak of infertility/ miscarriage. Its one of the hardest thing a couple will go through.

Wanting a child is a feeling that will take over your whole life. Once you get bitten by the bug, there is no looking forward or backwards until you have that child. Its a desire to nurture, care and love.
You think its going to be easy because infertility is not really talked about. At least it wasn't 5 years ago. Thank God nowadays its in the news, and more talked about. Talking about it helps so others don't feel alone.

I dealt with a lot of feelings of being alone. Everyone I knew was pregnant, unwanted pregnancies, wanted pregnancies, whatever. I remember sitting on the floor sobbing after a friend told me her dog gave birth to 5. Oh yeah that made me sob. How could a dog give birth to 5 and myself not even be able to get pregnant with one?? What is wrong with me?? is it because for years I tried to avoid pregnancy and cried a few times when my period was late?? Was it because until age 23 I said I never wanted kids? Was it because I thought the neighbors daughter was the little devil? Was it because I looked down on moms at the store that their child were misbehaving and in my high horse of being childless was sure I was never going to be that kind of mom?? Was it the cigarets I was smoking or the diet coke and coffee I couldn't give up?? Would my husband leave me if I can never give him a child??

These were some insane thoughts that ran through my head at the time. I honestly thought I had done something to cause this pain.

You see when a woman gets a positive, that child steals your heart. You start to make plans and realize your life will never be the same after. So when you miscarry, its the death of a child and having to bury a child, no matter how old is something no parent should ever do.

I remember reading a quote somewhere that stuck with me it said "ever since I was a little girl, I wanted to be a good mommy. I always thought the "good" would be hard, never once did I imagine it would be the "mommy" part" anonymous.

Also waiting every month for a positive, going through so many tests, shots, pills that will screw you up mentally and physically just to nudge your body into doing what everyone else can do without a problem is very trying to say the least.

Every month that you don't get a positive, it chips a bit at your soul. It robs you so many emotions like a carefree pregnancy. If God willing you do end up getting pregnant, every pain, every twist and turn you end up worrying yourself sick. At the sight of blood you will honestly freak out. Oh no what is going on what did I do??

Even though I now have 2 kids that brings me joy everyday, the memories are forever in my mind. I remember the worried nights, the tears I shed, the pain, the heartbreak, and everything else that accompanies this trial.

I got very lucky, and as my friends go through this, I want to tell each and every one of them, that they too can get through this and find happiness on the other side.

I want to console them. I want to tell them that all this pain will one day be worth it. That one day they will be rocking their newborn, smelling their sweet smell and finally understand why you put yourself through every thing that you did. That every single tear will be worth it. I want to give them my eggs, and my tubes, and all dust I have left. I want a stork delivering a cute bundle of joy to them right now so they can love it and appreciate it. But I know I can't do none of that.

I can't promise them a baby, I can't guarantee that they will get that most desired positive test and have a healthy joyful pregnancy because I don't know it. Sometimes no matter how much or how long you wish for something, it doesn't happen.

So the only thing I can do is reassure them that they are not alone. That even though I am in a different path right now, I have walked the dark path they are walking now and I remember. I remember it all and unfortunately its a path some of us have to walk in other to get to the other side.

Also I can think about you often, pray for you often and offer a lending ear. I know its not nearly the same, but my hope its that the little bit will build to make it enough. So that you can walk through this path without lots of stumbles, with your head held high, and your heart guarded a bit more, but walk through it, because maybe just maybe there is hope at the end of the tunnel, there is light.

Love A

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

"How are you???"

I believe "How are you?" is the most common question in the English language and yet the most complex.

When someone asks "how are you?" are they being polite or do they really want to know ?

Whey they ask that question, do they mean physically or emotionally?

Well, I just have had surgery, nonetheless in a third world country. Shocking to many, so of course all of my friends have asked me "how are you?" or any variations of that. I know they ask because they care and I only answer in the physically part of it.

So, how am I??

Well physically I am wonderful. I got really lucky and knock on wood no plane crashes, no pulmonary embolism, no infections, no leaks. Yeah a big risk I took, I know. But physically I couldn't be better. The first couple of days were hard. To be honest, the first two weeks. Your new stomach is so small, you can't take a gulp, if you do it will hurt, you will feel a pressure going down. You have to sip, sip, sip and if 30 years of habit gets to you, and you take a gulp while driving and not paying attention, you will pay for it. Trust me , I know ;)

Eating was hard also. You are on a clear liquid diet for the first wk or 2 in order to allow your new stomach to heal and to not put unnecessary pressure on your staples. Its not a big deal because you are not hungry really considering half a cup of chicken broth have the power to feel you up, its just boring and tedious.

Friday, I removed my own stitches. I know I rock like that ;) and started feeling much better. I can now take a gulp and while it will go down square, its not as uncomfortable. I have moved to stage 2 of the diet and can now have scrambled eggs, and soft wedges of cheese to my diet and mashed potatoes. How exciting!!!!

So yeah physically I am doing wonderful, but emotionally I am a wreck.

You see, almost everyone looses 20 lbs within the first week of this and then stall for a bit, then start up again. The first month though your average weight loss is 17-20 lbs depending on how heavy you are. If you are heavier, of course you will loose more. Also it takes a while for you to heal and your body to get out of shock and do what is supposed to do. You got to understand they pump you full of gas, cut a piece of your stomach, anesthesia, you name it. Everyone is different.

I have lost a grand total of 10 lbs in 2 wks. Very depressing. Wait what?? well I was expecting more, and therefore I am a bit disappointed. I could have lost that in a crash diet and saved my money. Except, I would have probably gained all of it in the following week and with this, I doubt I will be gaining anything considering the most I could eat in a day would equal to less than 800 calories. Seriously there isn't that many calories in chicken broth, or eggs or protein shakes to add up.

So for a while, I was freaking out. I think old fears of failing started to creep back up, I mean I can't count how many diets/life changes I tried and failed, why will this be any different??

After a kick in the ass from the hubby and some reassuring words from my friends, I have come to realize 10 lbs is good. Its a wonderful start and this is working. Maybe slowly than others but it is working, and besides I am not competing with anyone.

This has also made me realize I have a ton of baggage when it comes to my weight, baggage that I need to deal with it and figure it out.

So when you ask me the next time "how are you??" and I say "fine". I honestly mean it, physically of course, because you don't want to hear about how fucked up in the head this is and how stressed and scared I am, do you really??

Much love A

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Hey, it's okay :

1. To spend all day cuddling on the couch with your children while the dust bunnies multiply

2. To sing off key at the top of your lungs and not care who is watching.

3. To tell your husband you have a headache, let him handle the children bathtime routine while you go cuddle with your kindle.

4. To want, need and miss your mommy. Never too old to get hugs and cuddles from mommy.

5. To hand over the kitchen to your father every holiday, because no matter what, he is an amazing cook.

6. To send your husband silly text messages during the day just to bug him.

7. To build a fort with your kids and then wrestle around while the dishes are still in the sink

8. To make a mean face and shoot your son in the bootie with the nerf gun even though you have said a million times "NO shooting inside the house"

9. To ignore the laundry while you spend all day in the kitchen baking your family's favorite. Who needs clean underwear anyways when they got a full happy tummy??

10. To not put your child back in bed in the middle of the night, because even though they sleep like they are making snow angels, there is nothing more wonderful than cuddling with your babies

11. To put your cold feet underneath your husbands warm leg and smack him when he complains

12. To eat french toast for dinner. Spinach, balanced, nutritious is just too boring 7 days a week.

13. To let your children stay up late just because they called you "the most beautiful princess ever"

14. To feel blessed and not ashamed of it.

15. To ignore phone calls and text messages while you are still trying to get that dang third star in Angry Birds.

16. To love God, Jesus, be thankful you are saved and have no shame of it.

(Joining in with Amber at : )

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Ti's the season

I love Christmas. Love it. Its my absolutely favorite time of the year. I love the crowds, the hot chocolate, the decorations, buying presents, tinsel, mistletoe almost everything except the weather. You see growing up in the southern hemisphere, Christmas comes smack dab in the middle of the summer and nothing screams Christmas more than sitting in a beach in 90 weather drinking caipirinha and eating fried fish. Ahh the good old days!!

When we moved to Florida it was considered winter except S Florida winter is a joke. More like fall. Texas wasn't that bad, a couple of chilly days here and there. Our first real Christmas movie experience came when we were in N Carolina. 3-4' of snow on the ground before, during and after Christmas. I sled for the first time 7 months pregnant at the ripe young age of 27. It wasn't bad, just different. I enjoyed boots and sweaters and scarfs.

This year El Paso is constant nippy weather. We don't have inches and inches of snow, but its been low 40's for a while now. My children now own a down jacket, gloves and hats that I just We also lit the fireplace and have plans on drinking hot chocolate and just enjoying it.

Right before surgery I decorated the house and bought almost every present I needed to because I knew I wasn't going to be feeling it up to.

Well I came back in town Friday and by Saturday 4 days post op I was itching to do all the fun Christmas stuff I do every year. The cold weather didn't deter me. I dragged everyone downtown for the annual tree lighting and parade, spent a ridiculous amount of money on 2 light up swords that they broke less than 24 hours later, took some sips of my husband's hot chocolate and felt the beginning of frostbite, but the excitement on my childrens face when that fire department came, was it all worth it. Besides the docs told me to walk, walk, walk. They pump you with so much gas, you got to walk it out to release so it was all worth it.

But no that wasn't enough Christmas yet. Today I dressed both children up in their hand picked outfit that I have obsessed over for months just for this special occasion (Christmas outfits are a big deal around here ;)) sat them in front of the tree and took some pictures. Uploaded and now cards are ordered and they will go out this week. That has to be a new record for us.

Still feeling the spirit, I figured they are dressed up why not. We ate a yummy soup to warm out bellies and protect us against the cold that is outside. We fought the crowds paid an insane amount of money that I complain about every year, but still do it every year, and sat them on Santa's lap. Bribed them with many ponies and cookies and got our yearly Christmas photo with Santa.

and now I am It was a wonderful couple days and totally worth it. For the rest of the day I will sit in my couch, in my comfy jammies, while the husband deals with dinner, baths and etc, and I will gaze at our Santa Pictures through the years and just enjoy this season.

Santa Picture 2011:

Sneak peak of Christmas cards :

Much Love A

Sunday, November 27, 2011

House tour. Make yourself at home!!

I have moved more than a month ago, but just now the husband stopped home long enough for me to put him to work, and this past couple days have been used putting up pictures, fixing holes in the wall his wife made, some complains but lots of smiles and finally seeing the transformation from a house we are just passing through to a home.

So lets do the tour. It's not done, his todo list and my project list is still humungous, but its good enough for now.

Come on it :

Still searching for the perfect Christmas mat for the front door and still waiting on the husband to hang the lights.

Ignore the pantless baby. Pants is optional lately. Also why the lovely husband decided to pile the stockings on the left side instead of spread them out is beyond me. I love my stockings though. There is still more going on the mantle in terms of crafts and decorations but everything is put on hold for now.

Some more pinterest projects that will be posted later on about.

To the right is my bedroom. See that bedroom set? It use to be brown. 3 tutorials, 10 cans of spray paint, a heavy duty sander, some bubbles here and there, countless trips to Home Depot is now black and I am so happy. There is still a bookcase that I am searching for that will need to go there just to hold yearbooks and the printer. The curtain forget about it. I have no clue what color I want, so until I decide, it will be sans curtain.

My kitchen next. If I were to buy this house, I would totally knock down that wall and make it an open floor plan, but thank God we won't be here long enough to buy.

Behind the kitchen is my dining room that is also open to the living room

Down the hall to the left of the front door, there is dd room. Its not done at all. I have a lot of plans in terms of art in the wall. Her curtain is just on wait for a decent rod. But I did, I sew her curtains. Crooked and beautiful ;)
Unfortunately the walls will have to stay the same color. I drew asshole landlords. Aren't I lucky.

There is a bathroom in between both rooms and then ds's room. He got lucky. Its a huge room and with plenty of space for him to play, and make mess. A ledge shelf bookcase will go on that left corner. Just waiting for me to come back and instruct the hubby.

and of course a picture of the children on Thanksgiving. Lately they been difficult telling me no more pictures and making mean faces. MEMORIES CHILDREN MEMORIES. I need these pictures. Why don't they get that?? lol

Anyways, I hope you enjoyed the tour, and if you are around these parts, knock on the door, I would love to have you.

Much love A

Tuesday, November 22, 2011


When I was pregnant with dd I was extremely afraid. I am an only child, I have absolutely no idea how to deal with sibling issues. None. This thought has kept me up many nights and I was sure they were going to hate each other. I mean am I suppose to get involved? let it slide? let them figure out on their own?? Will they be close? hate each other??

Suffice to say, I worried a lot.

I read a lot, spoke to many seasoned moms and took some important measures to make sure Ty wasn't going to be jealous, scared or anything and that this baby mommy was bringing home was a fun addition to the family, not someone that was going to steal away his spotlight.

I don't know if it was my own doing or divine intervention, but Tyler was in love with his sister from the moment he met her in the hospital. To him she was the coolest thing since sliced bread. When we brought her home, he never had any jealousy, always wanted to help, she made a pip and he ran to her. She was spoiled and mostly by him. He would tell us she was his baby and his only.

Asides from one incident in which I turned around and saw him holding her because he had picked her up from the swing when she was 1 month old, things flowed greatly.

As she got older and started crawling, I was sure my luck was running out. Nope. He always let her play with his trucks, would take the books from her mouth and tell her in a kind voice "No no no baby, we don't bite we read" and he use to sit down and read to her.

I didn't think I could fall more in love with him, but I sure did. My heart was warmed and even more broke over the fact I would never had a sibling to care for. Oh well. At least I was doing something right and my kids were getting along great.

The transition from 1 to 2 kids was a piece of cake for us. Seriously, I couldn't have asked for anything better.

As she grew, more and more they played together. He has always been very protective of her and she only has eyes for him. He says jump she will say "how high". She will clap and run and hug him when we pick him up for school. She will sit there and rub his hair and clean his toys for him. He got her wrapped around his finger, and she got him right there too.

For almost 2 years they shared a room and I could hear them giggling way past it was time for them to be asleep. In a stern voice but with a heart full I would remind them its bedtime and to go night night. More giggles followed.

Life was perfect, then suddenly everything went to shit.

I don't know if its the changes, this move, trying to get more control, but for the past month all they do is fight and bicker and fight and bicker. They will argue over toys, over a spot on the couch, over the blanket, over the fact one has more grapes than the other, over this over that. God forbid she enters his room, he gets mad and vice versa.

Who the hell are these children?? What the heck happened?? Where did I go wrong??

Everyone tells me this is normal that siblings will fight and bicker. Its a normal part of sibling relationship, but its scary.

I know they still love each other, because here and there I will catch a glimpse of them playing together or giving each other a hug after a fall, but you got to be quick, it happens so fast, if you don't see it you will miss it, and then he chaos starts up again.

I can honestly say for the first time in my life, I am thankful I am an only child.

This constant bickering and fighting and acting like they can't stand each other is grating on my nerves and making me worry.

I truly hope its a phase and that things will once go back to what it was before, because at this point, I doubt they will even speak to each other in 3 years time!!!!!!

Monday, November 21, 2011

Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy

You are reading the title and going "huhn??

Well that was me before I found out what it was, and now I am calling it a lifesaving solution.

I won't bore you with the details. Later on I will make a tab talking about it, but just know I am another fat girl battling obesity since high school. Not that different from thousands others all over the world. I have had enough and decided I am going to have weight loss surgery.

There is 3 common types of weight loss surgery :

1. Roux en Y also know as the Gastric Bypass.

2. The lap band

3. The Vertical Sleeve.

The gastric bypass is divides the stomach into a small upper pouch and a much larger lower "remnant" pouch and then re-arranges the small intestine to allow both pouches to stay connected to it. There is various issues with it because of dumping (throwing up) and nutrition absorption. I don't know one person that have had it and had no problems with it. I went against that because I want a better quality of life. Not more issues.

The lap band doesn't really work. Its a band that goes around your stomach and requires fills and upkeeps and can easily slip.

The vertical sleeve they go in laparoscopy, cut 80% out of your stomach, gives you 3 rows of titanium staples and you are done. No rearranging of anything, no problems with nutrition absorption, no upkeeps, no fills. Nothing.

and now you have learned more about weight loss surgery than you care to. Sorry. I promise I won't flood my blog with this. I do want to share with others what I am going to go through, so every so often I will make a post about it.

I decided to have this surgery done in Mexico for various reasons that later I will go on more in depth about it.

I just wanted to let everyone know what is going on and if everything goes according to plan, on the 28th I fly to San Diego, on the 29th I have my surgery in Tijuana and start my new life.

I am more than glad to answer any questions anyone might have and any comments about it. The world is full of different opinions and while I have been flooded with support, I have heard some nasty things also. Not a problem, I expected worse, so I am happy that for every negative comment I get, I receive 10 good ones. It all evens out in the end.

Anyways that is that.

Love A

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

A-Z of me

Saw this in another blog and decided to do it!!!!!!

A. Age: 30
B. Bed size: Queen have debated for so long on getting a King but we like to snuggle and have feet rub up on our faces.
C. Chore that you hate: Cleaning toilets and putting away laundry. I hate it so much!!
D. Dogs: None. I don't love dogs enough to clean up after someone else.
E. Essential start to your day: Wake up brush teeth and race for the coffee.
F. Favorite color: Red. I am obsessed with red
G. Gold or Silver: Gold and yellow at that!
I. Instruments you play: HA!! I was born without the artistic bone. I can barely whistle much less play anything.
J. Job title: Wanna be Princess ;)
K. Kids: 2 sometimes 3, depending on how the husband is behaving.
L. Live: Where Judas lost his other boot...aka El Paso, TX.
M. Mother’s name: Carla
N. Nicknames: Line Line (pronounced Lee-nee Lee-nee)
O. Overnight hospital stays: Various times I broke my arm and 2 c-sections.
P. Pet peeves: I am full of them! I think the biggest is people saying they will call me back and they don't.
Q. Quote from a movie: "Every passing second is another chance to turn it all around" and the rest of the dialogue from Vanilla Sky.
R. Right or left handed: Right
S. Siblings: Only child that I know of won't admit to anything lol
U. Underwear: ??? I wear them!!
V. Vegetable you hate: Brussels Sprouts.
W. What makes you run late: Refusing to get out of bed because I stayed up too late the night before. Other than that I'm usually early because I hate having to rush.
X. X-Rays you’ve had: On my arm, ankle, elbow, ribs, and wrist.
Y. Yummy food that you make: Everything I cook is yummy except spinach casserole when I forgot to drain the water from the spinach. I don't recommend it at all!!! I am known for making a delicious perfect rice.
Z. Zoo animal: Sick and tired of them. I have been to more zoo's in the last 5 yrs of being a mother than the previous 25. They are all the same yet the children don't think so!

Saturday, November 12, 2011

What I been up to???

Knocking down pins. No, I don't bowl. Pins from Pinterest ;)

This yarn tree:


became this :

These were so easy to make, I made 3 and want to make more. Wonder if mommy would like some?? lol

Then this spy game for the kids:

Spy Kit

became this :

I wish I could find that bottle. It seems clear and less cloudy. Oh well!I highly suggest everyone making these. Its an easy project for the kids, they had a blast doing and have been playing for a long time. I hit a sale @ Hobby Lobby and got so many little santas, and trees, and tools. All kinds of things. They will actually sit there for hours shaking it trying to find something than come and show me all excited and my kids don't know how to sit still. So this is truly a miracle.

Then this


became this :

Its not perfect by any means but I am really happy with the way it turned out. Instead of doing same size pictures, I chose to do a couple different size ones.
You see, the 1st year is my favorite. I love children from birth to 1. If they never grew up, I would have a bunch, but they do and they talk back, so I like to have their 1st year pictures up where I can see and easy reminder not to strangle them. So I started at birth and ended with 1st birthday for each child.

I still have a ton more to finish and show like "wanna be" professional lined curtains for dd room and homemade snow globes.

I promise as soon as I am not feeling like death wash over with this nasty cold I got, and the husband gets home to lend a hand, I will share.

Much love


Friday, November 11, 2011

The best pumpkin cheesecake yet..

Cheesecake can change your life.

You see, last night I was feeling kind of down. I don't know anyone around here yet, I am sick and tired of staying home, going to parks alone with the kids or going shopping. I am in desperate need of adult conversation and I am tired of doing it alone. 3weeks seems to drag, so I decided to bake.

I haven't baked in over a week because with the husband gone there is just no point. This is odd for me because I usually can't go 3 days without baking something. So yeah, I been that bad. Well baking was what I was going to do to lift my spirits and I did that and it worked.

I made the most amazing pumpkin cheesecake yet. Seriously, I have outdone myself and right after this cheesecake came out of the oven, while on facebook, I found a group of friends of ours from back at Hood that they are here. We are so excited and one of the mommy playgroups I joined accepted me and I have the first get together tomorrow, so my delicious cheesecake set everything in motion.

Give it try, it will change your life.

(I don't have a source because I mixed over 5 different recipes)


1 1/2 cups of crushed graham crackers.
1/4 cup of sugar (I used a bit less because I don't like overly sweet crust)
1/3 cup butter melted

Bang really hard the graham crackers and let out some frustration or you can throw it in a food processor. I have lots of frustration to release, so I bang. Throw it in a bowl with the sugar, mix it, then throw in the melted butter. Press it into a ungreased pie plate and refrigerate for 30 minutes.

Pumpkin cheesecake:

3 (8 ounce) packages cream cheese, softened
1/2 cup white sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
2 eggs
1/2 cup of sour cream.
1 8oz can of pumpkin puree
1/2 teaspoon of rum
1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
1 pinch ground nutmeg

1st cream the cream cheese (if its room temp it will be easier), sugar and vanilla extract. Then add one egg at a time and continue on mixing it. Remove one cup of the batter, spread it on the crust and set aside. Add the sour cream and after that is mixed, turn your mixer off. Add the pumpkin puree, spices and rum. Mix it by hand only until its all incorporated. Don't over mix.
Spread the batter over the crust and bake it @ 325 for 35 to 45 minutes until the center is set. Let it cool and refrigerate for 3 hours. You can serve it with whip cream if desired.

That is it. Easy simple delicious and my first cheesecake that didn't crack and doesn't require a bath.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

The H20 issue

Every single day I say I am going to do better and every single day I fall, but since I am a sucker for "Vanilla Sky" and completely believed when Penelope told Mr Cruise: "every passing second is another chance to turn it all around", I continue on this path of trying and failing.

You see I am not a healthy person by any means. I try and try and some things stick, others just fall to the side. If I have the option of nacho loaded with cheese and a salad, I will pick the nachos. The same with the cocktail or the low calorie beer. I don't do it on purpose, I do it because the better tasting one is just better and at 30 years old, I am trying to find happiness everywhere. Some things I have been able to find respectable substitutes for , others not so much.

H20 is the biggest one I have a problem with. I know you are supposed to drink at least 64oz of water a day. At least 8 glasses. Its important, necessary for your body and to keep you alive. Yet I am incapable of doing it.

Things start off great : I am going to drink water tomorrow. I got this fancy new water bottle, and I am going to do good for myself.

I wake up, have my cup of coffee, fill my water bottle and start sipping it through out the day. By noon I realized I only had 3 sips because I left it by the wash machine earlier in the day, and how this diet coke can got in my hand is beyond me. I put the coke can in the fridge, go search for the water bottle, dump it down, refill it and chug it down because I still have 7 to go.

By 4pm I can't stand to look at water. I have downed 2 more water bottles, I got a nasty caffeine headache because I haven't had a diet coke, and I just want my diet coke so I start to make deals with myself...Chug one more water bottle and that will make it 4 for the day. Have your diet coke and then only drink water for the rest of the day.

Fair enough : I drink my diet coke, my body relaxes and I start to feel better, until I get to the end of the can and then start to feel bad again thinking about the last 4 glasses of water I still got to drink. Through my pain, I manage to chug down one more, run to the bathroom for the 70th time and decide never again will I drink water. This shit sucks and I don't like or care for it.

Then I feel bad , so I decide tomorrow I will do better. I head to Walmart and buy 20 different types of Crystal light and Arizona green tea packets in all kinds of flavors. That is it. This is what I need to accomplish this water drinking issue. I head to the cash register floating on a cloud. I found the answer to my riddle. I can do this.

I try one it tastes like ass, the 2nd is not better, the third one is doable, the 4th one tastes kind of good. Okay this will be it, tomorrow I will add to my water bottle and I will be able to drink water.

By tomorrow I have my cup of coffee, fill my water bottle with my delicious pomegranate tea mix and decide today I will be a water drinking woman. I am 30, its about time. Its an important change I need to make. I am a woman hear me roar, I am going to do this even if I have to drink 8 glasses of water 20 minutes before bedtime because, the only thing I have drank all day is ice coffee or diet coke. None of that matter. Every passing second is another chance to turn it all around, and I am going to try again in just a second, I am, I promise, right after I finish this diet coke!

Love A

Monday, October 31, 2011

Halloween through the years

I love seeing how much my kids have changed and grown and since dh, who is a technical genius, was able to rescue my pictures from my old laptop that took a dump, and throw it on my new one, I have every single picture available since he joined some 6 years ago. Oh yeah we will be taking a lot of trips down memory lane in the upcoming posts. Nostalgia to the max ;)

Oh and I am proud of myself 6 years of relationship, 2 kids, countless trips, moves, vacations, trips to the zoo and etc and I only have 3k pictures. Not bad hun?? That is only 500 pictures a year people that have captured the most precious and special moments. I think I am doing great, dh thinks I am insane. Who asked him anyways??

Anyways here we go:

Oct 2006, FL

Ds was 1 month old and we were in Fl with my parents. Dh had just deployed a month before ds was born, and came home when he was 1 wk old and then left again mid Oct. This was the beginning of the year we would not see each other. My mother bought ds this costume against my wish. I don't like anything Tiger or Pooh for clothing or decorations like the million of parents that do. Sorry!! (see that is what I mean about pictures. One picture will bring up so many emotions)

OCt 2007, Fort Hood, Texas

Dh had just gotten home, we celebrated ds's 1st birthday,was planning a trip, a move and etc and with all the excitement I forgot to buy a costume. 2 days before halloween dh went out and came back with this one.

Oct 2008 Ft Bragg, NC

This year ds was a chicken. Don't ever let your husband pick out the halloween costume. He will come up with the most strange one possible. Never on my own would I have dressed Ty up as a chicken, but considering I was 79999 months pregnant and wasn't feeling like celebrating anything that year, the task fell on dh. Never again ;)

Oct 2009, Ft Bragg, NC

This halloween we had welcomed Juliet into the family back in February. We were still in Ft Bragg, Nc. Ds was in love with Oswald and therefore an amazing talented online friend made his costume for me and dd I found it online by accident. This year goes down in memory as the halloween Ally spent an insane amount of money in costumes. You don't even want to know how much his homemade costume and hers cost me. Oh well they look adorable and its all that matters right?? lol

Oct 2010, FL

(can't figure out how to turn them. Tilt your head ;) )

This year I wanted to do have them match and considering ds was voicing his opinion on what he wanted to wear more often, I decided to do it while I had the chance. We were back in Fl while dh had just started his first civillian contracting gig in Afghan. Another holiday alone.

And finally Oct 2011, El paso, TX.

Tyler picked his costume, which is also the theme for his past 5th birthday, his sheets he begged me to buy, the movie we watch very often and etc...
Juliet was a costume I came across and fell in love with.

Much Love

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Pinterest to the rescue again..

This week I have cooked my way through pinterest a lot. I have found some keepers and some losers. Some brought smiles to everyones face and other recipes will never grace the kitchen again. I haven't only cooked with the help of Pinterest, I have also decorated, did this and that, but that is for another day.

So lets start,

Banana cake with vanilla bean frosting

This pretty was delicious and its definitely going in the recipe books. We all love bananas a lot. Its not unusual to go through 2-3 lbs of bananas a week. The kids are always walking through the kitchen and grabbing some. Dh will eat one right before lunch, then there is banana smoothies, banana breads and banana everything. Funny story about this cake : when dd woke up from her nap, I gave her a piece and then went outside to smoke. I come back inside with her inside my fridge and her mouth and hands full of cake. Also the beautiful frosting had horrible nail marks.
Caught you in the act!!!
Nice real nice. A zombie would have done less damage ;)

Next up came this breakfast casserole :

It wasn't that good :(. I don't know if I screwed up, which is kind of hard to do since its so simple, or what. But no bueno and bummer because we love breakfast for dinner and are always looking for new recipes.

This chicken cordon bleu :

was next. It was good but not as good as regular in the oven original chicken bleu. Somethings you just cant rush!

Then today came the spider cupcakes :

These came out wonderfully good. I actually killed 2 pinterest with one stone. I used this method :

with some cake box. I am working on these green sweet potato fillings for empanadas tomorrow. Its my first attempt at a homemade pie crust and things are not going that great, so I didn't want to make cake from scratch. Also I wanted to see if just a box of cake and a can of pumpkin puree would really work. Well it did. I am glad I did and found out because now I will keep that in mind anytime I use it again and want to make it healthier. I mean no eggs, no oil and pumpkin instead is healthier right even if its cake box.

This week the hubby will leave for his first tdy. There won't be much cooking done. Just back to the normal basic stuff for the children. Maybe then I can work on the million and one pins I have for holiday/home decoration.

much love

Friday, October 28, 2011

Bum showing

For the next couple weeks I am going to walk around showing my bum :0

You see homecoming was just under a month ago. In these past 30 days we welcomed my hubby home, went on vacations, moved across country, adapted to this that, no humidity, a brand new place, having the hubby home. Which is a big adjustment on its own and we are not done we are still adjusting. 12 months can take a toll on a family, but we were doing good.

That is it until we got a call that hubby was up for his first TDY. He will leave this week and spend 3 weeks in Colorado Springs. Yeah I know its not Afghan and yeah I know its not for another whole year, but I still want to whine.

He just got home a month ago. A month! that is not nearly enough time for me to be ready to send him back again. For this month I let my big girl panties drop, I asked him to open cans, I gladly handed over the bath time routine, one more set of hands in public is always welcome, I was just getting used to waking up late on the weekends. We still have so many plans and things we want to do and yet everything has to be put on hold again.

I know, we signed up for this shit, or it got throw in our path, I am thankful I have a husband to miss, I know, but still it has only been one month?? BLAHHHHH

Anyone knows me knows I try not to whine too much, or at least I don't think I do, but now I am whining to last me a lifetime and probably tomorrow I will so regret this post, but try to understand. Here I go doing everything alone again and to top it off in a place I still haven't learned to go to Walmart and back without getting lost. I still have a couple of boxes to unpack and picture frames to hang. I am still resting off the past 12 months. I am not ready!!

So yeah I whine, but I promise I wont be like those wife that their husbands goes on a business trip and they compare that to the deployment. I promise I still remember this is Colorado Springs and asides from frostbite, his risk level is minimal, but that doesn't mean it still doesn't suck.

The pro?? He will be home on Monday to Trick or Treat and forbid any natural disaster he will be flying home the day before Thanksgiving and there is no Colorado Springs magnets on my fridge. Its the little big things right??

High consumption of wine will be necessary in order to stop this whine and once again find the strength to pull up these big girl panties ;)

Monday, October 24, 2011

Too much tv

We are boring folks around here. We lead very boring lifes and I love it. No drama no issues.

After the kids goes to bed one of our favorite pastimes is to watch tv shows. We never watch them while they are on tv because we are very impatient and get so into it, waiting until next week to find out who killed who is too stressful. Instant gratification all the way (Except for House. Every monday night we are watching House. An episode of House never leaves you hanging so that is okay)

We just wait until the seasons come out on dvd and either download, stream it from netflix or rent it. Every night after the kids are in bed, you will find us in the couch, cuddling up to watch a new episode of whatever tv show we are hooked on at the moment. Don't feel bad for us, sometimes we play cards and drink beer to keep things fresh and exciting ;)

Anyways, a deployment throws a wrench on things and one of the major cons of having a husband deployed is that you end up watching tv shows and movies without them. Life can't stop, and if your husband is lucky enough to be deployed to a calm place, he will have loads of downtime to catch up on movies and shows.

Through the deployment we will coordinate what each other is watching. He will mention a new tv show and if it doesn't sound too appealing to me, I tell him to just watch it, if I like it enough, that is what nap time is for. Since he knows me so well, he will tell me if its worth it or not to watch it. So far he hasn't steered me wrong. Well except with Dexter. I can't stand it and he loves it and thinks I just need to give it a whole season. No way jose.

Movies we will just watch whatever whenever, and when he gets home I will mention the ones I think he has to watch and he will mention some to me. Although in the beginning is a pain trying to see who saw what who needs to see what. Total pain I tell you.

Our current tv show is "Sons of Anarchy". A friend mentioned and it piqued my curiosity. I mentioned to dh while he was deployed and we decided to wait and see it together because it seems like something we will both enjoy.

So while he was deployed he watched the rest of 1.Dexter, 2. Entourage and 3.Supernatural . Dexter I don't care for like I mentioned before, Entourage might be something I end up watching during naptime but I doubt it. The same goes for Supernatural. He thinks I will love it because of my obsession with teen vampire books. I doubt it.

I watched 1.Criminal Minds. Too depressing for him.
2.Army wives. He won't be caught dead watching it and
3.16 and pregnant and Teen mom. He can't understand my obsession with this much trash. I think he is too uptight ;)

Now that he is home we started watching Sons of Anarchy and I must say we are hooked. Friday night yield a 4 am bedtime because we just had to see another episode. Its about a motorcycle club in Cali and its an adult soap opera. Very interesting never boring and just hilarious. Watch it and you wont be disappointed.

After we are all caught up on this, we will watch the last few seasons of Weeds that we left off before deployment, Desperate Housewives and Tru Blood. Never seen it and we both want to check it out.

He also mentioned Spartacus. So we might pick that up. Aren't you just jealous of our exciting life ;)

So is there any tv shows you guys are hooked on with your partners?? Anything you think I need to see because its just that awesome??

Love A

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Air show.

Saturday was a packed day. First we got some breakfast then went to yard sales, which was a bust, took the kids to get haircuts which came out great then headed to the Air show.

The Air show was a first for both of us so we were excited. I personally was a bit disappointed. It was extremely hot like high 80's and of course dry. I need some breeze and some humidity and there is none of that. Also it was extremely expensive. $3.50 for a bottle of water, seriously? and they had some fair rides for the kids. A lot of them and they were pricey too like $6 per ride. I didn't like that on top of the fact inside one of the bouncy castles this kid kicked my daughter in the face and she ended up with a bloody nose. All that left a little bitter taste in my mouth.

The show itself was pretty neat, the beer was cold and delicious, the crowds were polite, I guess all in all a good entertaining day but if I never go to another one again, I wont shed a tear. Oh well!!

The cool thing is one of the pilots took the local news guy up in one of the planes while doing the stunts. The news guy passed out twice, when we came back he was so palid, I felt for him. I guess going 900 miles an hour, upside down, sideways and in loops will do that to you ;)

Nothing too crazy on his hair this time. Only a trim

When you have 0 humidity, you need the help of an all natural gel to help you get your curls back.

No more bangs in my eyes makes mommy one happy person!

That made me nauseous just looking at it.

Yeahh enjoy that hot dog, you better eat every single crumble because it will be most expensive hot dog you will ever eat in your

Love A

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Where has the time gone???

"The world has grown suspicious of anything that looks like a happily married life." unknown

It seems like yesterday we started on this journey. A lot of people say 9 years is nothing in the grand scheme of things, I personally think 9 years is huge and I will gladly take it and celebrate it. We are not perfect, we make mistakes, we sometimes are mean to each other, but at the end of the day we only want to see each happiness more than our own and I think that is why we are happy. Not all the time, I don't know if its possible. I joke that: "I love you always, but liking you comes and goes"

So here is a list, just to make everyone have a toothache, of the reasons I love my husband:

1. He tells me I am beautiful and loves me for me at least once a day and at least once a day I tell him his insane but that hasn't stopped him. Somehow he is winning because my self esteem is a lot higher than when we first met.

2. He will let me sleep in without a problem and bring me breakfast in bed. It's the way to my heart and he knows the road like the back of his hand ;)

3. I come up with some crazy idea; like buying a tiny tea cup pig and he will support me. I could say I want to buy a whale and have it sleep in our bed and he will say: 'as long as you got the logistics taken care of, go for it". He has given me so much freedom so I can grow and become who I am, even though if that is slightly insane ;)

4. He is an amazing father. He is hands on, changes diapers from the beginning, cleans up puke, does it all. No joke he would make a great mother if he wasn't a wonderful father. He will roll around on the floor with them, act silly and have a blast doing it.

5. When he is home, he is in charge of bath time, he took on this task because he knows that is one of the few tasks of parenthood I dont like it.

6. He has no idea how much we get paid, and as long as I tell him its enough to pay the bills, he is happy. I haven't worked in 6 years and if I ever thought of getting a job, it was never because of him. He supports me in staying home with the kids and if I go out today and buy a coach purse, he won't care.

7. At 11:30 at night I say I am craving a Brazilian dessert that is a 30 minute drive, he will turn to me and say "have you been reading my mind? where is my keys?"

8. Anytime of the day, no matter if its after he has worked a good 8-10 hours and is exhausted and I tell him I need a break from the kids and from it all, he will turn to them and say "let's go help daddy and the grocery store".

9. He is hilarious. He has a great sense of humor. He can easily make me have tears rolling down my eyes from laughing so hard I will snort. We have so many inside jokes and there isn't a day that goes by, that I won't remember something he did and burst out laughing all alone and later when I tell him he will think its awesome.

9 down and a million to go. I love you with all my heart babe xoxoxoxo

Sunday, October 16, 2011

New Mexico

What do you do when you are: in a house waiting for HHG's with 2 children and one very small tv?? You find something to do.

Sunday morning I hopped on the computer and started searching for things to do with the kids. I came across this pumpkin patch that is highly rated and since we haven't done the pumpkin patch this year yet, that became our destination. We packed everyone up with lots of layers that are ready to be ripped off (you see here at 7am its low 50's by noon its high 80's low 90's) so you need to wear easily removable layers, lots of water and got on the road.

While driving we figured out this is our 5th pumpkin patch in 5 years none in the same place as the other. Pretty crazy hun??

The drive there wasn't bad. There is a curve the highway makes, that puts you right next to Ciudade Juarez,Mexico and you can see the adobe made homes on top of the hills just like the slums in Rio. I am very mad we can't visit. The violence there is too great, maybe later on.

Then there is hundreds of cow farms. I hope its for milk only ;) The smell is horrible so windows closed all the way.

"MOOOO" (also I learned my husband can eerily correctly imitate a cow's moo. Oh the things you learn after 9 years of marriage ;) )

There is mountains and still a lot of empty land. To everyone this might seem normal, to us that come from S Florida that you don't see 1 acre of empty land, its odd, then less than 1 hour later we had crossed into New Mexico and headed to the town of Las Cruces, New Mexico.

This was one of the best pumpkin patches we have gone too. There was so much to do for the kids, some delicious local stuff like the delicious pumpkin butter that is currently in my fridge, hay rides, tyke rides, water areas, big slides. Just a fun place. Everyone is extremely friendly and we had a good ol time.

By lunchtime we left and decided to drive around to check out the town. Its a small town and very rural but really cute. Most of the houses are like this :

with these flat roofs. So different.

While driving around we were all hungry so I hopped on my phone and did a search for best place to eat in Las Cruces (can I just say how much I love technology??) and came across this review from a guy that have lived there for 4 years. He rated Bosa Donuts his top place to eat because of their delicious brisket burrito. There was nothing else to say about it, we punched in the GPS and headed there.

Its a hole in the wall with pain chips falling off the wall, the menu is very small. Only a variety of donuts, a variety of breakfast and lunch burritos and some old school style bottles of soda. It was packed. We ordered the brisket burritos (dh's with chili, mine without) and some beans and cheese burritos for the kids and braced ourselves. It was dirt cheap but the best burrito I have had in my life. Its so simple: beef brisket and coleslaw in a flour tortilla, but it was so so good. I know I said the same thing the first time I had Chipotle and the same thing when I had Taco Cabana after arriving here, but seriously this tops the cake. I told dh he will drive 1 hr very often just so I can have this burrito again. So if you are ever in Las Cruces eat there. You won't be sorry!

We all loved our food and can't wait to go back. So thank you technology and thank you stranger on the wolrd wide web for recommending it to us. After driving around some more through the downtown district we headed home very happy that we now know an amazing burrito place and that even though we still don't have furniture, we have kick ass pumpkins and delicious pumpkin butter.

Its the little things people ;)

Next week will take us to the Airshow. The first for all of us and I can't wait. If there is anything to say about this place is that you are only bored if you want to. I don't know if its because end of the year festivities or what but there is a ton to do.

Much love A