Every single day I say I am going to do better and every single day I fall, but since I am a sucker for "Vanilla Sky" and completely believed when Penelope told Mr Cruise: "every passing second is another chance to turn it all around", I continue on this path of trying and failing.
You see I am not a healthy person by any means. I try and try and some things stick, others just fall to the side. If I have the option of nacho loaded with cheese and a salad, I will pick the nachos. The same with the cocktail or the low calorie beer. I don't do it on purpose, I do it because the better tasting one is just better and at 30 years old, I am trying to find happiness everywhere. Some things I have been able to find respectable substitutes for , others not so much.
H20 is the biggest one I have a problem with. I know you are supposed to drink at least 64oz of water a day. At least 8 glasses. Its important, necessary for your body and to keep you alive. Yet I am incapable of doing it.
Things start off great : I am going to drink water tomorrow. I got this fancy new water bottle, and I am going to do good for myself.
I wake up, have my cup of coffee, fill my water bottle and start sipping it through out the day. By noon I realized I only had 3 sips because I left it by the wash machine earlier in the day, and how this diet coke can got in my hand is beyond me. I put the coke can in the fridge, go search for the water bottle, dump it down, refill it and chug it down because I still have 7 to go.
By 4pm I can't stand to look at water. I have downed 2 more water bottles, I got a nasty caffeine headache because I haven't had a diet coke, and I just want my diet coke so I start to make deals with myself...Chug one more water bottle and that will make it 4 for the day. Have your diet coke and then only drink water for the rest of the day.
Fair enough : I drink my diet coke, my body relaxes and I start to feel better, until I get to the end of the can and then start to feel bad again thinking about the last 4 glasses of water I still got to drink. Through my pain, I manage to chug down one more, run to the bathroom for the 70th time and decide never again will I drink water. This shit sucks and I don't like or care for it.
Then I feel bad , so I decide tomorrow I will do better. I head to Walmart and buy 20 different types of Crystal light and Arizona green tea packets in all kinds of flavors. That is it. This is what I need to accomplish this water drinking issue. I head to the cash register floating on a cloud. I found the answer to my riddle. I can do this.
I try one it tastes like ass, the 2nd is not better, the third one is doable, the 4th one tastes kind of good. Okay this will be it, tomorrow I will add to my water bottle and I will be able to drink water.
By tomorrow I have my cup of coffee, fill my water bottle with my delicious pomegranate tea mix and decide today I will be a water drinking woman. I am 30, its about time. Its an important change I need to make. I am a woman hear me roar, I am going to do this even if I have to drink 8 glasses of water 20 minutes before bedtime because, the only thing I have drank all day is ice coffee or diet coke. None of that matter. Every passing second is another chance to turn it all around, and I am going to try again in just a second, I am, I promise, right after I finish this diet coke!