While a couple important things have happened, these past couple of weeks in my life has been all about me trying to decide where will my life go next.
I did get my interview scheduled for my naturalization. May 7th I will go in and take the test and swear and become a US citizen. To be able to put this behind me and not have to deal with USCIS again will be a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. I cant wait.
I have also decided I need a degree. We are supossed to be here for 3 years, plenty of time for me to buckle down and get a bachelors in something. My issue? I have no clue what. I have finally decided nursing is not for me. No matter how much I want, think I would be good at, is a good paying job and secure, its not for me. So back to the drawing board I go trying to figure what the hell in the world would make me happy. I was thinking Spanish teacher, but to teach forever I dont know. Then maybe bussiness in healthcare management, but I really dont know. I dont have a passion for absolutly nothing and that is so sad and pathetic. Until I figure out what I want to do, I keep taking classes and wasting time and money and the more time passes the more depressed about this whole thing I get. Its a vicious cycle :(.
The kids are doing good. Ty is a trip latetly with all the stuff he is learning. His favorite new phrase is "not yet". Anything you ask him he will answer with "not yet" even if "not yet" is not an acceptable answer. He has been doing great with the potty training and by next month we should be able to send him to preschool if thinks works out with Scottys job.
Ju is still not smiling at almost 7 wks old. That is upsetting me so much. I dont know why. I think its the hormones and this new antidepressant. Who knows? I just know that right now taking care of my husband/house/kids are the only thing that gives me a sense of accomplishment since professionally, I am not going anywhere. So the fact that she is not smiling makes me think she is not happy at all which breaks my heart in a million pieces. I trully do hope she will smile soon. I dont know how much more of this I can take :(. Asides from that, she is doing great. She eats, sleeps and has a pretty good personality. TY is up her face all day long and she takes it in stride. always checking him out and never crying even when I know he is bugging her.
Now on to Scotty. Ohh my lovelly husband. I love him with all my heart and we have been getting along great, but he is not doing too good either.
He is in a unit that he wont deploy for 3 yrs but on he other hand, they are an EOD unit and dont have that many trucks so he doesnt get to turn wrenches. He has the choice to go to a unit that has a very quick rotation (82nd) but he will get to turn wrenches. We had a very long heart to heart and he did explain to me that when he deployed last time, because he was leaving rigth before Ty was born, he convinced himself it was for the best and he needed to take care of his country and I guess he did such a good job at convincing himself, that now he cant let it go. He is extremelly happy he is here for Ju and have gotten to experience this phase, but at the same time he is feeling uselless. Being a soldier, part of your job is to deploy and he figures he is not doing his job, on top of being in a unit where hey doesnt turn wrenches and doesnt get to show his abilities, he is pretty misserable.
I will support him in whatever he wants to do. I understand where he is coming from and even though a deployment will suck with 2 kids, I can do it.
So that is pretty much what has been going on. I am trying to decide if I want to become an FCC provider since we need extra income to pay off cc's and that way I can make tha extra money and stay at home with the kids or not. I think I am going to do the course (1 wk in may) just to have it. If he does change units and deploy, I will have to give my all to the kids since they will only have one parent, so working will be out of the quesion. If he doesnt change units , then I will start taking care of kids and hopefully get out of the cc's because they are bugging me.
So we will see. I been trying to have faith and know everything will somehow work itself out, and some days I do such a good job, other days I am just barerlly holding it.
Whatever will be will be right?
xoxox
A
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Happy birthday to you....
Happy birthday dear Juliet. Happy birthday to you ...yepppieeeeee!
(WARNING: NEW MOTHER GUSHING ABOUT HER DAUGTHER. PROCEED WITH CAUTION :))
Yep. Today is Juliets birthday. She is 1 month old :)
I have been getting all teary eyed latetly that the time has been flying and she is growing up so fast and never again will she this tiny. I am also excited she is growing healthy and soon the milestones will come and make me happy, but its a bitter sweet moment.
So anyways, she is about 20 inches, 9.5 lbs and just a bundle of joy. She is extremelly healthy and have no problems at all. How can we be so blessed is beyond me.
She is adorable at this young. She has this thing where she purs when she is sleeping. I was sure she was congested. When we went for her appointment, the doc said its just them learning how to breath. Her chest is absolutly clean. Its just normal. Well Scotty is always messing with her. He says she sounds like a pager on vibrate on top of a table...purrrrpurrrpurrpurrrpurrr. All night long. We have gotten so used to it, I will definetly miss it when it stops.
Another thing is, I was sure she was going to smile today. See, she only smiles once and that is at night right after she have eaten and burped, she will let out this huge smile and then pass out and the purring will start. She doesnt smile at any other time. Only at night. Today I was hoping she was going to smile since its her birthday and all, but nope no luck.I think she will just surprise me..lol.
I cant complain about anything. She is such an easy baby.
She is a good sleeper/eater. Sometimes she will sleep through the night (5 or 6 hrs straight), other nights she is up every 4 hrs on the dot. Also, during the day I bring her to the living room with us because I hate leaving her byherself. She is part of the family. So I will either bring her bassinet or she will be sleeping on her swing. Its unbeliveable how used she is to our house. Tyler will scream, the tv will be on, I will be vaccuming and even have the mixer on. Nothing fazes her. she will just keep on sleeping. Also when Tyler screams or throws a tantrum, she wont even startle or nothing. She will just open her eyes check things out and then go back to sleeping. I think she got used to it all while in utero..lmfao.
During the day, you can time your watch to her eating. She will be completetly passed out, as soon as that 4 hrs hit, she will be up whinning to eat. She doesnt really cry. I dont think I have seen a tear on her (Thank God). She will just whine louder and louder and start sucking on her hand when she is hungry.
She will eat anywhere between 4-6oz. Right now the avarage is 5. She will get mad for half oz. Its funny cause sometimes we will feed her 4.5 oz thinking its enough, well its not. She will whine then we give her more. She will eat her .5 oz and then pass out. She will also pucker up her lips when she is done. Too cute. I am completly smitten and in love. I thank God everyday for her. She is a pain in the arse to burp for me. She will eat in less than 20 minutes but take a while to burp. Sometimes its 4 am and I have done feeding her and will be sitting there patting and patting and nothing. Finally I am so exhausted and wake up Scotty. He taps for less than 20 seconds and out comes a huge burp. Absolutly unbeliveable. He has been so proud of the fact he can burp her better than me, I adore that he has that since he missed so much with Ty.
I havent decided yet when to do professional pictures. Right now she sleeps so much and its so young, I think I might wait until she is a bit older. We will see.
Well that is enough gushing for now :) I will update about her as time goes on.
I hope everyone is okay and not too frozen.
love
A
(WARNING: NEW MOTHER GUSHING ABOUT HER DAUGTHER. PROCEED WITH CAUTION :))
Yep. Today is Juliets birthday. She is 1 month old :)
I have been getting all teary eyed latetly that the time has been flying and she is growing up so fast and never again will she this tiny. I am also excited she is growing healthy and soon the milestones will come and make me happy, but its a bitter sweet moment.
So anyways, she is about 20 inches, 9.5 lbs and just a bundle of joy. She is extremelly healthy and have no problems at all. How can we be so blessed is beyond me.
She is adorable at this young. She has this thing where she purs when she is sleeping. I was sure she was congested. When we went for her appointment, the doc said its just them learning how to breath. Her chest is absolutly clean. Its just normal. Well Scotty is always messing with her. He says she sounds like a pager on vibrate on top of a table...purrrrpurrrpurrpurrrpurrr. All night long. We have gotten so used to it, I will definetly miss it when it stops.
Another thing is, I was sure she was going to smile today. See, she only smiles once and that is at night right after she have eaten and burped, she will let out this huge smile and then pass out and the purring will start. She doesnt smile at any other time. Only at night. Today I was hoping she was going to smile since its her birthday and all, but nope no luck.I think she will just surprise me..lol.
I cant complain about anything. She is such an easy baby.
She is a good sleeper/eater. Sometimes she will sleep through the night (5 or 6 hrs straight), other nights she is up every 4 hrs on the dot. Also, during the day I bring her to the living room with us because I hate leaving her byherself. She is part of the family. So I will either bring her bassinet or she will be sleeping on her swing. Its unbeliveable how used she is to our house. Tyler will scream, the tv will be on, I will be vaccuming and even have the mixer on. Nothing fazes her. she will just keep on sleeping. Also when Tyler screams or throws a tantrum, she wont even startle or nothing. She will just open her eyes check things out and then go back to sleeping. I think she got used to it all while in utero..lmfao.
During the day, you can time your watch to her eating. She will be completetly passed out, as soon as that 4 hrs hit, she will be up whinning to eat. She doesnt really cry. I dont think I have seen a tear on her (Thank God). She will just whine louder and louder and start sucking on her hand when she is hungry.
She will eat anywhere between 4-6oz. Right now the avarage is 5. She will get mad for half oz. Its funny cause sometimes we will feed her 4.5 oz thinking its enough, well its not. She will whine then we give her more. She will eat her .5 oz and then pass out. She will also pucker up her lips when she is done. Too cute. I am completly smitten and in love. I thank God everyday for her. She is a pain in the arse to burp for me. She will eat in less than 20 minutes but take a while to burp. Sometimes its 4 am and I have done feeding her and will be sitting there patting and patting and nothing. Finally I am so exhausted and wake up Scotty. He taps for less than 20 seconds and out comes a huge burp. Absolutly unbeliveable. He has been so proud of the fact he can burp her better than me, I adore that he has that since he missed so much with Ty.
I havent decided yet when to do professional pictures. Right now she sleeps so much and its so young, I think I might wait until she is a bit older. We will see.
Well that is enough gushing for now :) I will update about her as time goes on.
I hope everyone is okay and not too frozen.
love
A
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Car seat cover
Some of you might remember the whole Target deal where they had the Britax Marathons on sale for 1/3 of the price. A lot of people werent able to get that deal, I was :)
Anyways, the car seat came with a cow over. I despise anything cow. Might be because of my love for pigs :)
Well I put that seat cover for sale on ebay and ever since then, I been looking for a new one. At $80-$120 bucks or more for the cute ones, I had given up on the fact I was going to find one. Well I did. After months of searching, I came across this site on etsy and fell in love with this specific pattern. I had to wait since she was out of it, but she finally got the material in, made me seat cover and shipped to me today. It was all for under $60. I am so freaking excited. The quality is beautiful, extremelly well made and of course its gorgeous. I couldnt be happier.
So if anyone is interested in getting one, here is her site :
Definetly order from her. You wont be dissapointed and she is a sweetie.
Dont notice how it looks crooked. I just put on top. I have no clue how to put the straps to, adjust it or even put it in the car. That is Scottys job. :)
Anyways, the car seat came with a cow over. I despise anything cow. Might be because of my love for pigs :)
Well I put that seat cover for sale on ebay and ever since then, I been looking for a new one. At $80-$120 bucks or more for the cute ones, I had given up on the fact I was going to find one. Well I did. After months of searching, I came across this site on etsy and fell in love with this specific pattern. I had to wait since she was out of it, but she finally got the material in, made me seat cover and shipped to me today. It was all for under $60. I am so freaking excited. The quality is beautiful, extremelly well made and of course its gorgeous. I couldnt be happier.
So if anyone is interested in getting one, here is her site :
Definetly order from her. You wont be dissapointed and she is a sweetie.
Dont notice how it looks crooked. I just put on top. I have no clue how to put the straps to, adjust it or even put it in the car. That is Scottys job. :)
MOVIE REVIEW :)
The hubby and I have always loved watching movies. Long ago before kids, we use to go to the movies at least once a week. Heck some weeks we went 2 or 3 times. We also rented a ton of movies. That has always been our number one hobby.
Well after the kids came along, I refuse to be one of those moms that will drag my kid to watch SAW at the 10pm showing. Sorry cant do it. Not even if he will sleep through it.
So for a while we have been patiently waiting for all the good movies to rent. Well I finally stumbled on a great site that you can watch all the new releases while in theatres for great quality. This is dvd quality and they come out a day or two right after they have hit the movies. So we have been watching every single new release. We put our kids to bed (working with ds going to bed at around 8 by himself and dd is so good she just chills) and if we are not exhausted we will watch a movie.
We have seen "Marley and Me", "Taken", "Push" and "7lbs" and have a huge list of many more to see.
Lets start with "Marley and me": What a good sweet movie. I am not a major dog lover like some people, but this movie did tug at my heart. Its funny, sad and beautiful all at the same time. Scotty is the major dog lover and he loved it. Its a crier though. So make sure all your hormones are in check before you start watching it.
Taken. Awesome action movie. From beginning to end. The action actually starts right at the beginning and it keeps going. Nothing mind blowing or anything but a good action movie.
"Push". I have been so excited to watch this movie ever since I seen the previews for it. When we started watching, I was jumping around like a 2 yr old. I couldnt wait for it. Well it was a huge dissapointment. The concept of it was good but the movie itself just sucked. I was soo freaking upset. By midway movie I just wanted to shut off and go to bed but we still watched the whole thing. Dont waste your money going to theaters to watch this one. Just wait to rent it and even then, rent from redbox so you only waste a buck. Yeahh that bad.
The last one we have seen was 7lbs. That is the weird one with Will Smith. I saw the previews for it but had absolutly no clue what the movie was about. Seriouslly the previews show its a good movie but doesnt really tell you what the movie is about. I wanted to google it before we watch but decided to just watch it and be surprised. Boy I am glad I didnt google it. Dont if you dont know what the movie its about. It makes it extra special !.
This movie is 124 minutes long. Until minute 84 or so, you have no clue whats going on but still the movie keeps you captivated. The suddlenly you start to understand everything and start crying. What a beautiful touching movie. I love everything Will Smith does, but this is just wow. Definetly watch it.
I cant say much more about it or I will give the movie away, but watch it. Its a trully wonderful piece of art.
This weekend we are in between "Curious Case of Benjamin Button", "Bride Wars", "Confessions of a shopaholic" and a weird movie Scotty wants to watch.
Whatever we decide to watch, I will definetly come back and udate it.
----Ally--------
Well after the kids came along, I refuse to be one of those moms that will drag my kid to watch SAW at the 10pm showing. Sorry cant do it. Not even if he will sleep through it.
So for a while we have been patiently waiting for all the good movies to rent. Well I finally stumbled on a great site that you can watch all the new releases while in theatres for great quality. This is dvd quality and they come out a day or two right after they have hit the movies. So we have been watching every single new release. We put our kids to bed (working with ds going to bed at around 8 by himself and dd is so good she just chills) and if we are not exhausted we will watch a movie.
We have seen "Marley and Me", "Taken", "Push" and "7lbs" and have a huge list of many more to see.
Lets start with "Marley and me": What a good sweet movie. I am not a major dog lover like some people, but this movie did tug at my heart. Its funny, sad and beautiful all at the same time. Scotty is the major dog lover and he loved it. Its a crier though. So make sure all your hormones are in check before you start watching it.
Taken. Awesome action movie. From beginning to end. The action actually starts right at the beginning and it keeps going. Nothing mind blowing or anything but a good action movie.
"Push". I have been so excited to watch this movie ever since I seen the previews for it. When we started watching, I was jumping around like a 2 yr old. I couldnt wait for it. Well it was a huge dissapointment. The concept of it was good but the movie itself just sucked. I was soo freaking upset. By midway movie I just wanted to shut off and go to bed but we still watched the whole thing. Dont waste your money going to theaters to watch this one. Just wait to rent it and even then, rent from redbox so you only waste a buck. Yeahh that bad.
The last one we have seen was 7lbs. That is the weird one with Will Smith. I saw the previews for it but had absolutly no clue what the movie was about. Seriouslly the previews show its a good movie but doesnt really tell you what the movie is about. I wanted to google it before we watch but decided to just watch it and be surprised. Boy I am glad I didnt google it. Dont if you dont know what the movie its about. It makes it extra special !.
This movie is 124 minutes long. Until minute 84 or so, you have no clue whats going on but still the movie keeps you captivated. The suddlenly you start to understand everything and start crying. What a beautiful touching movie. I love everything Will Smith does, but this is just wow. Definetly watch it.
I cant say much more about it or I will give the movie away, but watch it. Its a trully wonderful piece of art.
This weekend we are in between "Curious Case of Benjamin Button", "Bride Wars", "Confessions of a shopaholic" and a weird movie Scotty wants to watch.
Whatever we decide to watch, I will definetly come back and udate it.
----Ally--------
Monday, February 23, 2009
Church shopping !
Last year we decided it was time to go to church. I missed a ton and I finally convinced Scotty to go. Well we got reccomendation from a couple of our friends and decided to go to this non denomination church that was very small and very low key. We could wear jeans and flip flops and no one cared. Half the people wore the same thing. The nursery was awesome and the service was wonderful. The pastor was very sweet and he didnt preach from beginning to end. He actually talked to us about all kinds of things. From marriage, to saving money and etc. It was such a wonderful/ fun service that he had us laughing through parts of it and at the same time sharing a beautiful message. Scotty fell in love with it. It was the first church he didnt falls asleep. He was very excited to go every sunday morning. Ours lives also started improving a lot.
Well we PCSd to Bragg in Oct. We havent even looked for a church yet because of everything that was going on. Things started to happen, one on top of the other and we started making stupid decisions and I felt something was missing. Finally I decided back to church we are going. I just feel so much better going to church with my family on sunday. Me that use to hate going to church and any type of organized religion is now craving for it and feeling like something is missing.
So after the decision was made, it was time to find the right church for us. Doing what any normal person would do, I posted an ad on craigslist (no joke and dont laugh.) but what was I supossed to do? I am in a new area and if I go to yellow pages I get over 500 hits of churchs in the area. I couldnt go to every single one of them. So I posted an ad on craiglist saying that we moved from texas, and that we were looking for a church that you could jeans and a tshirt and not be looked down on. Also one that had a nursery for Tyler and a good service. Not a preaching one from beginning to end or else Scotty was going to fall asleep and never want to go back. I explained all of that in my ad.
I was pleasantly surprised when I got over 50 responses. The kindness and willingness of people willing to help me brought tears to my eyes.
Some people wrote telling me that their church doesnt fit what we were looking for but they wished me the best of luck in finding the right one.
Other people wrote me just to tell me how much they understand how hard is to move around every couple years with the military and how difficult it must be leaving your church that you like and enjoy and having to find a new one.
I was seriouslly crying reading all these emails. This made me realize there is some kind people out there. And who would have thought I would find them by posting an ad on craigslist looking for a church?? Still makes me laugh just thinking about it.
But anyways, after sorting through all the emails, I wrote down all the names of the churches that fit our charecteristics and others that I think we would like and on Sunday we picked the first one and went.
Now this one caught my attention because on the email the guy told me you could wear whatever you wanted, the nursery is great and that his kids come home talking about Jesus and sharing everything they learned (that was a major plus considering I feel my number one job as a mother is to teach my kids about our beloved wonderful savior) and he also said the services are very livelly and that there is no way my husband would fall asleep. I didnt really like that the service started at 8am or 11 am. The 8 am is too early. No way we would make it on time with 2 kids to get ready for in the morning. The 11am seemed kind of late since by the time its done it would be well past lunch time for Tyler and maybe even past his nap time. But I decided not to let that bother me and went anyways.
Well we go in and everyone is extremelly nice. Its a nondenom. christian church. The church is very pretty and there is over 150 people there. Bigger than what we wanted but okay. One thing that we did notice as soon as we walked in the door is that church is 99.9% black. And I say 99.9% because Scotty and I were there. If we werent it would have been 100%. I mean seriouslly no joke. We were the only white people there. No exageration either. We stood up to introduce ourselves and I looked around and we were the whitest.
Now I am not racist by anymeans. I wouldnt have cared but we did feel out of place. If it was half black or even 75% I would have had no issues with it. But the fact that we were the only whities there, did make us feel out of place.
The service was amazing though. The music was beautiful, the energy was great. All the old ladies dancing in the pew while praising Jesus. The pastor was funny. He had on this bright red stripped suit. He looked more like a rapper. The way he delivered the service was funny. He would say stuff like "can I get an amen..whoop whoop" or soemthing like "I better not talk about this topic or folks are going to get mad at me..but I am going to talk about anyways. I want to rustle feathers.." ...i mean we were cracking up.
Also lots of "praise the Lord.Halleluah". It trully reminded me of any movies you see on tv about small towns southern baptist churches.
We had a good time. Even though we realized this church is not for us and next week we are going to a different one in search of trying to find that homey feeling, we still enjoyed ourselves.
So next week we are going to pick a new one from the list I made and try it out. We are between this one called Rockfish (which I heard from 3 emails that is a great church) or this other one to which we have nicknamed the biker church. Scotty is dying to go there. The reason for the nickname is : on the email the lady explained to me that we could wear our jeans and no one would look at us funny since the biker club go that church and they wear tank tops and tats all over the place and no one gives them weird looks at all. So of course Scotty wants to go to see the bikers. Not the right reason to go to church, but hey as long as he is there, its all cool.
So I will continue to post about my quest in order to find a church.
One thing that stuck with me about this church we went on sunday is that the pastor said church going is only like housekeeping. You only go to church to brush up and concentrate on God but that the real work ( or deep cleaning) is done outside church during our week and outside in the real world. That struck a note with me.
So the next time someone asks me why I find it necessary to go to church, I will tell them I need to do some housekeeping :)
Wish me luck people. We need/want this :)
love
A
Well we PCSd to Bragg in Oct. We havent even looked for a church yet because of everything that was going on. Things started to happen, one on top of the other and we started making stupid decisions and I felt something was missing. Finally I decided back to church we are going. I just feel so much better going to church with my family on sunday. Me that use to hate going to church and any type of organized religion is now craving for it and feeling like something is missing.
So after the decision was made, it was time to find the right church for us. Doing what any normal person would do, I posted an ad on craigslist (no joke and dont laugh.) but what was I supossed to do? I am in a new area and if I go to yellow pages I get over 500 hits of churchs in the area. I couldnt go to every single one of them. So I posted an ad on craiglist saying that we moved from texas, and that we were looking for a church that you could jeans and a tshirt and not be looked down on. Also one that had a nursery for Tyler and a good service. Not a preaching one from beginning to end or else Scotty was going to fall asleep and never want to go back. I explained all of that in my ad.
I was pleasantly surprised when I got over 50 responses. The kindness and willingness of people willing to help me brought tears to my eyes.
Some people wrote telling me that their church doesnt fit what we were looking for but they wished me the best of luck in finding the right one.
Other people wrote me just to tell me how much they understand how hard is to move around every couple years with the military and how difficult it must be leaving your church that you like and enjoy and having to find a new one.
I was seriouslly crying reading all these emails. This made me realize there is some kind people out there. And who would have thought I would find them by posting an ad on craigslist looking for a church?? Still makes me laugh just thinking about it.
But anyways, after sorting through all the emails, I wrote down all the names of the churches that fit our charecteristics and others that I think we would like and on Sunday we picked the first one and went.
Now this one caught my attention because on the email the guy told me you could wear whatever you wanted, the nursery is great and that his kids come home talking about Jesus and sharing everything they learned (that was a major plus considering I feel my number one job as a mother is to teach my kids about our beloved wonderful savior) and he also said the services are very livelly and that there is no way my husband would fall asleep. I didnt really like that the service started at 8am or 11 am. The 8 am is too early. No way we would make it on time with 2 kids to get ready for in the morning. The 11am seemed kind of late since by the time its done it would be well past lunch time for Tyler and maybe even past his nap time. But I decided not to let that bother me and went anyways.
Well we go in and everyone is extremelly nice. Its a nondenom. christian church. The church is very pretty and there is over 150 people there. Bigger than what we wanted but okay. One thing that we did notice as soon as we walked in the door is that church is 99.9% black. And I say 99.9% because Scotty and I were there. If we werent it would have been 100%. I mean seriouslly no joke. We were the only white people there. No exageration either. We stood up to introduce ourselves and I looked around and we were the whitest.
Now I am not racist by anymeans. I wouldnt have cared but we did feel out of place. If it was half black or even 75% I would have had no issues with it. But the fact that we were the only whities there, did make us feel out of place.
The service was amazing though. The music was beautiful, the energy was great. All the old ladies dancing in the pew while praising Jesus. The pastor was funny. He had on this bright red stripped suit. He looked more like a rapper. The way he delivered the service was funny. He would say stuff like "can I get an amen..whoop whoop" or soemthing like "I better not talk about this topic or folks are going to get mad at me..but I am going to talk about anyways. I want to rustle feathers.." ...i mean we were cracking up.
Also lots of "praise the Lord.Halleluah". It trully reminded me of any movies you see on tv about small towns southern baptist churches.
We had a good time. Even though we realized this church is not for us and next week we are going to a different one in search of trying to find that homey feeling, we still enjoyed ourselves.
So next week we are going to pick a new one from the list I made and try it out. We are between this one called Rockfish (which I heard from 3 emails that is a great church) or this other one to which we have nicknamed the biker church. Scotty is dying to go there. The reason for the nickname is : on the email the lady explained to me that we could wear our jeans and no one would look at us funny since the biker club go that church and they wear tank tops and tats all over the place and no one gives them weird looks at all. So of course Scotty wants to go to see the bikers. Not the right reason to go to church, but hey as long as he is there, its all cool.
So I will continue to post about my quest in order to find a church.
One thing that stuck with me about this church we went on sunday is that the pastor said church going is only like housekeeping. You only go to church to brush up and concentrate on God but that the real work ( or deep cleaning) is done outside church during our week and outside in the real world. That struck a note with me.
So the next time someone asks me why I find it necessary to go to church, I will tell them I need to do some housekeeping :)
Wish me luck people. We need/want this :)
love
A
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Nursery on a budget :)
Everyone has been asking me about the nursery. Its not completetly done but I am dang proud of it since I didnt even spend $300 on everything. I am extremelly proud of my bargaining skills :P
Wow ....just wow!
I never imagined how hard it would be juggling 2 kids.
Yes 2 kids :) My gorgeous daughter Juliet Grace was born on Feb 3rd. Healthy and happy 8lbs9oz. She is absolutly perfect. Such an easy baby (knock on wood). I am in love.
But anyways if you know me, you already know all the detail. Okay so back to topic of juggling 2 kids. This morning Ty wakes me up at 7 (scotty has left long ago for pt) and tells me he got to poop. So I jump out of bed, hit my knee on the bed and rush him to the bathroom. I cant believe the stars. We been trying to potty train this kid for such a long time and everytime we ask him if he has poop, he says no. So the fact that he is telling me is great. Well I rush him to the toilet in a half limping half asleep daze, rip his diaper off and put him in the potty only to realize he had already pooped in his diaper. At the same time Ju starts crying because its time for her to eat (she only cries when its time to eat), and my phone starts to ring. So I tell Ty to sit still, rush to get the phone on the way to hand Ju a pacifier to keep her happy for 2 more seconds. My mom is on the phone calling me to ask something stupid. I answer her quickly. No no profanities did come out :)
I hand Ju her paci and rush back to Ty. He of course didnt sit still and decided it was bath time. SO he went to the tub to take a bath. So now I have a toilet and tub to clean at 7 am before I even had coffee and remember that I have a baby in the other room with just a paci that wont last for long and I still need to make her bottle.
So the cool collected mom that I am knows what to do. I sat down and started laughing. OMG I havent laughed in so much. It was just one of those moments.
So that is life right now and I wouldnt trade for anything. Just need to learn how to manage crisis a bit better :)
PS Only my husband will spend $9 bucks on a pt shirt for Tyler so he can match dada..
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Still baking....
I wish I could say I havent posted because I have had my daughter. Nope. No such luck. I am still extremelly pregnant, over pregnant..ohhh so pregnant.lol.
I just been lazy:)
Couple things did happen that I want to mention..
1. Dh finished his class. He passed. We are soo excited and now life will get easier. He will go back to work but can come home anytime I need or have an appointment so that rocks.
2. My sugar is so so and the last NST's have been fine. Bebe was measuring 6lbs9ozs at the last u/s. That is not 100% accurate but it makes me happier than if they were to tell me she was measuring 19lbs.
3. I finally got off my arse and signed up for school. If I get into the program, I will start in August. I do have to retake my Anatomy I since they are only valid for 5 years and mine will expire in March of this year. But that I can take over the summer and its not a big deal. If everything goes okay by next year I will have my Practical nursing degree. I cant believe it and about time. I cant believe I have been going to school on and off for 5 yrs and have no degree to show for..lol.
I can take the 3 or 4 classes I am missing at Central texas college on post here and get my AA or AS. So I might do that in between. We will see.
4. Today dh's unit threw me a babyshower. I about cried. I never had a babyshower with Tyler because of dh deploying and me moving and etc and since so many people says its tacky to have a baby shower for a second kid (I disagree with that but wont use this to rant and rave and explain my point), anyways,I wasnt going to have one. Well the CO and the 1st SGT threw me one out of nowhere. It was actually a surprise one and it was so sweet of them. We only have 18 people in the unit and since they are trying to make the unit strong and etc, they are throwing baby showers for all the pregos (just had mine and next month we will have another for one of the guys wife and in 2 months we will have the third)..such a small unit and 3 pregos..lol.
But anyways everything was amazing. We got to play games, they got me this gorgeous ladybug cake with ladybug balloons (dh told them the theme since he was in it). I just had a really awesome time. I was actually sad that this would be my last kid and I would have never experienced the fun of a babyshower. Not for the presents because we have everything we need for her, but just for the games and the fun and etc. I was so touched I cried..lol. I know. Its just I been to so many baby showers and the idea that I wasnt going to have one and have that experience was making me sad. But I did have the experience and the best gift I could have gotten was the memory they gave me. I love this unit :)
5. And last but not least I have to share the funny of the week. I was washing dishes yesterday night and suddenly out of nowhere ds comes behind me pulls my sweats down and says: "Mama got no poop" and ran. Meanwhile I hear dh cracking up. I cant believe my husband thought it was funny to tell our 2 yr old to check if mama had poop. I did smirk a bit. I am just thankful I dont wear sweats in public..lol.
So that was my exciting week! I hope everyone is good and I promise I will post more often. Well at least until I give birth :)
love
A
I just been lazy:)
Couple things did happen that I want to mention..
1. Dh finished his class. He passed. We are soo excited and now life will get easier. He will go back to work but can come home anytime I need or have an appointment so that rocks.
2. My sugar is so so and the last NST's have been fine. Bebe was measuring 6lbs9ozs at the last u/s. That is not 100% accurate but it makes me happier than if they were to tell me she was measuring 19lbs.
3. I finally got off my arse and signed up for school. If I get into the program, I will start in August. I do have to retake my Anatomy I since they are only valid for 5 years and mine will expire in March of this year. But that I can take over the summer and its not a big deal. If everything goes okay by next year I will have my Practical nursing degree. I cant believe it and about time. I cant believe I have been going to school on and off for 5 yrs and have no degree to show for..lol.
I can take the 3 or 4 classes I am missing at Central texas college on post here and get my AA or AS. So I might do that in between. We will see.
4. Today dh's unit threw me a babyshower. I about cried. I never had a babyshower with Tyler because of dh deploying and me moving and etc and since so many people says its tacky to have a baby shower for a second kid (I disagree with that but wont use this to rant and rave and explain my point), anyways,I wasnt going to have one. Well the CO and the 1st SGT threw me one out of nowhere. It was actually a surprise one and it was so sweet of them. We only have 18 people in the unit and since they are trying to make the unit strong and etc, they are throwing baby showers for all the pregos (just had mine and next month we will have another for one of the guys wife and in 2 months we will have the third)..such a small unit and 3 pregos..lol.
But anyways everything was amazing. We got to play games, they got me this gorgeous ladybug cake with ladybug balloons (dh told them the theme since he was in it). I just had a really awesome time. I was actually sad that this would be my last kid and I would have never experienced the fun of a babyshower. Not for the presents because we have everything we need for her, but just for the games and the fun and etc. I was so touched I cried..lol. I know. Its just I been to so many baby showers and the idea that I wasnt going to have one and have that experience was making me sad. But I did have the experience and the best gift I could have gotten was the memory they gave me. I love this unit :)
5. And last but not least I have to share the funny of the week. I was washing dishes yesterday night and suddenly out of nowhere ds comes behind me pulls my sweats down and says: "Mama got no poop" and ran. Meanwhile I hear dh cracking up. I cant believe my husband thought it was funny to tell our 2 yr old to check if mama had poop. I did smirk a bit. I am just thankful I dont wear sweats in public..lol.
So that was my exciting week! I hope everyone is good and I promise I will post more often. Well at least until I give birth :)
love
A
Friday, January 9, 2009
ALREADY???
Its january 9th of a brand new year and I am already whinning/feeling like I am loosing my fucking mind?? are you serious?? I didnt expect this until after feb the earliest..but here we are.
On tues I found out I have GD. You are supossed to find out at 28wks but because of PCS and etc, everything got screwed up and I didnt find out until 35 1/2 weeks.
That has been a stress on its own. Scotty is in this class that he has to finish. No if's and's or buts. Even though I got a note from my doctor and etc that he is needed, he still has to finish. Welcome to Army life. No I cant complain about that too much. The sgt has been very nice and told him that the days he doesnt have a test he can leave early or whatever but the days he has a test he has to stay because he has to pass this class. Well he misses too much and he misses the information so therefore we kind of stuck.
Also his car is not working and if he had to just stay in the class all freaking day I would have dropped him off in the morning and kept the car all day. Well he is not. He is all over the place. He goes to class then has to go to his unit to do this then run here and there to do paperwork. With 1 car only its killing us.
So yesterday by the grace of God, daycare on post had an opening. At lunch, Scotty came home, we dropped Tyler off at daycare and I dropped Scotty off at class and went to do a Non Stress Test. They want me to do this twice a week. Not going to happen and I already heard from the nurse how important this is for my child. I FUCKING KNOW THAT OKAY BUT ITS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO BE ABLE TO MAKE TO THE CLINIC TWICE A WEEK AND SIT THERE FOR 20 TO 40 MINUTES WITHOUT TAKING TYLER. If its so important, you should have offered some kind of childcare or something because not all of us have the luxury of just dumping our kids off somewhere and sitting there.
So fine I do the NST. Pick up Tyler and Scotty and come home. I am exhausted by this point and pretty much just lay in the couch.
Well today I started testing my blood sugar and it came out really high. They told me if it came out high for 2 readings, to call the nurse for advice. I call her and she is absolutly bitching at me. Want to know why? Because I had a glass of juice, toast and a piece of apple for breakfast. OMG. She is completetly flippping out and telling me why did I choose to do that if the class taught me different. UHh what class?? The one that is only offered on wed's and since I just found out on wed I kind of missed that one and I am waiting for next wed to try to make it?? That class? Ohh okay.
Yeahh thanks for making me feel like shitty mom of the year.
So everything is just fucked up. My sugar being so high explains the extreme exhaustion. So at least I know I am not loosing mind. I just want to cry. My anxiety/depression is through the roof. I need my meds but cant go back on them until after the baby is born. I only have 3 wks left until my scheduled csection but it seems like 3 years. I dont know how I will make it.
I highly doubt Scotty will be able to finish his class and pass, I will get my sugar under control, this baby will cook until she is supossed to and Tyler will come out of this unhurt (since we havent paid much attention to him and I am just too exhausted to have any patience left). So one of those things will suffer and I dont know wich one will be and I feel so guilty.
Any other time I would be taking my meds and my levels would be normal, I would know its not my fault and I am not a burden and to blame for everything, but since that is not the case right now I am just feeling so crappy and like everything is my fault and I did something to warrant this and everything is falling apart.
I seriouslly dont know what to do :(. any advice? anyone?
God, look at how whinny pathetic I sound.
On tues I found out I have GD. You are supossed to find out at 28wks but because of PCS and etc, everything got screwed up and I didnt find out until 35 1/2 weeks.
That has been a stress on its own. Scotty is in this class that he has to finish. No if's and's or buts. Even though I got a note from my doctor and etc that he is needed, he still has to finish. Welcome to Army life. No I cant complain about that too much. The sgt has been very nice and told him that the days he doesnt have a test he can leave early or whatever but the days he has a test he has to stay because he has to pass this class. Well he misses too much and he misses the information so therefore we kind of stuck.
Also his car is not working and if he had to just stay in the class all freaking day I would have dropped him off in the morning and kept the car all day. Well he is not. He is all over the place. He goes to class then has to go to his unit to do this then run here and there to do paperwork. With 1 car only its killing us.
So yesterday by the grace of God, daycare on post had an opening. At lunch, Scotty came home, we dropped Tyler off at daycare and I dropped Scotty off at class and went to do a Non Stress Test. They want me to do this twice a week. Not going to happen and I already heard from the nurse how important this is for my child. I FUCKING KNOW THAT OKAY BUT ITS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO BE ABLE TO MAKE TO THE CLINIC TWICE A WEEK AND SIT THERE FOR 20 TO 40 MINUTES WITHOUT TAKING TYLER. If its so important, you should have offered some kind of childcare or something because not all of us have the luxury of just dumping our kids off somewhere and sitting there.
So fine I do the NST. Pick up Tyler and Scotty and come home. I am exhausted by this point and pretty much just lay in the couch.
Well today I started testing my blood sugar and it came out really high. They told me if it came out high for 2 readings, to call the nurse for advice. I call her and she is absolutly bitching at me. Want to know why? Because I had a glass of juice, toast and a piece of apple for breakfast. OMG. She is completetly flippping out and telling me why did I choose to do that if the class taught me different. UHh what class?? The one that is only offered on wed's and since I just found out on wed I kind of missed that one and I am waiting for next wed to try to make it?? That class? Ohh okay.
Yeahh thanks for making me feel like shitty mom of the year.
So everything is just fucked up. My sugar being so high explains the extreme exhaustion. So at least I know I am not loosing mind. I just want to cry. My anxiety/depression is through the roof. I need my meds but cant go back on them until after the baby is born. I only have 3 wks left until my scheduled csection but it seems like 3 years. I dont know how I will make it.
I highly doubt Scotty will be able to finish his class and pass, I will get my sugar under control, this baby will cook until she is supossed to and Tyler will come out of this unhurt (since we havent paid much attention to him and I am just too exhausted to have any patience left). So one of those things will suffer and I dont know wich one will be and I feel so guilty.
Any other time I would be taking my meds and my levels would be normal, I would know its not my fault and I am not a burden and to blame for everything, but since that is not the case right now I am just feeling so crappy and like everything is my fault and I did something to warrant this and everything is falling apart.
I seriouslly dont know what to do :(. any advice? anyone?
God, look at how whinny pathetic I sound.
Friday, January 2, 2009
Happy New Year :)
2009 just began and I am going to slap my husband soon :P
How many times can a person repeat..."NO darling my water didnt break!" , "NO baby , I am not having contractions".
Get over dude. Nothing will happen until feb 3rd when I have my scheduled csection. So leave me the hell alone and have patience.
Anyways he is off for like 4 days and before then only worked for half days so he is driving me nuts..lol. We been watching tv, chilling and keeping the child entertained. That is about it. We cool, arent you jealous??
Anyways, Happy New Year everyone. I promise I will give birth this year...lol.
love
A
How many times can a person repeat..."NO darling my water didnt break!" , "NO baby , I am not having contractions".
Get over dude. Nothing will happen until feb 3rd when I have my scheduled csection. So leave me the hell alone and have patience.
Anyways he is off for like 4 days and before then only worked for half days so he is driving me nuts..lol. We been watching tv, chilling and keeping the child entertained. That is about it. We cool, arent you jealous??
Anyways, Happy New Year everyone. I promise I will give birth this year...lol.
love
A
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